my dream came true!!
watched forbidden city yesterday. was super nice!
credits to lijun.
i'm still thinking about the whole musical even up till now.
it was fantastic!
not only was it FORBIDDEN CITY, it was the premier!
whoa, how cool is that!
after that went to eat dinner with eli aggie tang sam.
was boring, ate macs. *pukes
went home.
was literally freaked out when i thought about alst night.
thanks to the 4 of you, i'm home safely.
and not forgetting eli's mum too.

yesterday that maid of mine went home!
yay!
yet another dream come true.
it was a long and frightening story, but all is well now.
i love maidless-ness.
september holidays was a wreck.
i didn't make full use of the holidays to really study.
but just randomly studying here and there.

now everyone's asking whether to go prom.
it's at Copthorne Kings Hotel.
err.
last year they had it at Rasa Sentosa,
and now>??!
stupid shit.
and moreover, not only do we have pay for the fee,
we also have to pay for gown, hair, make up, shoes, etc etc.
wow, wad a bomb.
and moreover, what's the point of going,
if i'm not with the people i want to be with,
force won't brng happiness.
right?
i don't want to force myself to go just cos everyone's going.
that's so.. fake?
i think i probably won't enjoy myself.
and i'll also feel bad putting up with the 4e ppl.
they're really nice ppl.
but i somehow don't want to treat them as substitutes.
the problem lies with me. it's not them.
i've got this big screwed up problem since last year, july.
everyone has gotten over it except me.
sometimes i can't stand myself for being like that.
but i can't help it.
when i see the people i miss,
all the bad feelings rush back.
ai ya!
stop it.