christmas is over. tomorrow will be the new year, and i'll be in sec3. the thought of new books, new clasmates, new teacher and new juniors, etc.. really makes me feel sick. argh, i seriously dun look forward to going back to school. God bless me!!

jus had lectors camp on 26-28 dec, quite fun lar.. jus dat kana pang seh-ed a couple of times.. oh wells, good thing i got Isis to tok to me. or else i would have rot at the camp. quite interesting, managed to grasp some reading skills and techniques. and learnt bridge. haha, learn gambling in a 'holy' camp eh.. actually bridge isn't exacly gambling lar, it's jus a mind boggling card game. haha.. quite fun lar, played bridge for lyk 7hours, from 11pm to 6am. lols, didn't really sleep much on 2nd night. sleep for lyk 2-3hours nia. but i've successfully learnt how to play bridge!! well, sort of..

den on 29-30 dec, was a nightmare. wad do u expect, go back school fro sec1 orientation preparation. wah lau, the moment i reach school, we were made to run 3 rounds around basketball court, wad crapp.. den we had to do pumping. whoa, before we even started training, we were already sweating lyk mad. and i mean mad. yupp, when we DID finally start on training, we tied the tripod. and tied square lashing, to be able to climb to the top. at first iw as scared, cos of the heights. den later, gradually, the fear lessened. phew.. the feeling was satisfying.

had a 1 1/2 hour lunch break. song man! went KFC, ate fried chicken.

the rest of the day went on as normal.. i don't wish to elaborate..

day 2.
we were made to render the punishment together wid the sec1s although we did not make any mistake.. so much for "one for all, all for one".. im really beginnning to detest this phrase. really! did half squat, I MEAN HALF squat.. squat lyk siao. den we did finish the tripod. yeah!!!

had lunch at Long John. it was quite a new found discovery, burger king was replaced by long john, guess BK wasn't doing very well bah. clara wong was lyk constantly asking for the crumbs, haha, and the guy at the counter was quite pissed wid us cos we were making so much noise and pestering him for crumbs.
oh ya.. one reminder, dun go to RM's MacDonald.. cos 1st: the machine , dunnow ad it's called, the one where when u sign up for the card you get 500 points dat card, is spoiled. 2nd: the machine for storing ice cream is also spoiled.

went back school, someone was late and we were made to do half squat AGAIN!! wad the.. thanks a lot man, sec1s. later they had to apologise to snrs. well, the worst thing was datw e sec2s also had to apologise. i mean, wad for! we did not even commit any mistake. yet, we rendered the same punishment, and now, they want us to put down our ego and say sorry for something we did not do. to me, wad i think is dat they're depriving us of the our pride. wad is this!

forget it. later we ahd to perform the skit to Ms Teh, for her approval. hahaha, guess wad she said, out movements were tooo robotic. you noe wad, i SO agree. the skit was abt a typical day in UG (uniform group) camp. and becos a typical day in UG camp IS robotic, dat's why our skit was robotic. cant blame us for our stiff movements wad. we gave them ad they demanded of us, dat was do everything that we are told to do. NO LIFE at all.

finally everything ended. we played murderer. so fun.. again on this, i do not wish to elaborate.

poor people who suffered the tsunami disaster. pray that God will bless them. right now listening to radio, death toll has risen from 60 000+, to 125 000+.. so sad right.

i realised that whenever i go for a camp, some thing bad would happen. lyk last time i went for sec2 adventure camp, the Nicoll Highway collapsed, den now i went for lectors camp, the tsunami occurred.

oh well..

yesterday went to Heartland mall, partly to go buy sch books, partly to bring my brothers n sister go see the ninja turtles show. [the one one kidscentral one] wah lau, the crowd was lyk crazy mann, so many ppl, i couldn't even see my feet while walking, haha, nvr seen heartland mall so lively before. cool. i oso saw mrs servos, she was probably wid her kids. wells, after a while, i went second floor, den third floor.. den went popular, wanted to enquire abt how to order my dear idol, Taufik's album, but all the ppl there were lyk so sua ku.. so it was a futile trip in the end. hahas, but i saw baby wong.. she bought printer ink, came wid a free Incredibles jack-jack notebook, I WANT!!! haha, but i was polite, =)) yupp, and i told her to keep it. den later went home eat diner.

went out again later in the night.. bookshop was closed, how to buy books??? so in the end went Compass Pt. first went to bank to deposit $$.. mwahahaha, $150 at one go.. shuang mann! hehe.. den went popular, bought the books, altogether abt $100++ but since the books are to be used for 2 yrs, it's worth it la.. ... ... scarriee... ... saw the chemistry, Chemistry Insights, something lyk dat, so damn thick can.. and heavy, so it occurred to me dat i should share loker wid aggie again next yr.. hahas, this time, rest assure i'll pay $15.. =p whoa, and physics was a killer as well.. not to mention A maths, all these 3 books, each of them is thicker than a dictionary can.. imagine lugging 3-dictionary size books to school alost everyday, can die can.. dat's why i say they're killers.. and when i skimmed thru the chem book, oh my gosh, i couldn't even understand a single thing, how!?!?! panic big time.. hope i can be ENLIGHTENED next year..

yeah, "... ... Eternal rest grant unto her oh Lord, and may perpatual light shine upon her, may she rest in peace... ..."
hahas, i've learnt it le!!!

in my mind
i can climb
all the mountain that surrounds me
my spirits there where eagles dare to fly

in my heart,
there's a spark
that can light the world around me
and open doors where i am sure dreams are

it doesn't matter if i win
or the colour of my skin
cause the race is all about believing in yourself

chorus:
and i dream
i can run like the wind
and be strong
when my heart just wants to give in
i dream i can be the hero that's in me
when i dream,
i dream

there's a time in ur life
when the odds are so against
you there's no defeat
if all u keep is pride

first or last
slow or fast
there's a dignity that makes u
keep driving on when the world's have come apart

it doesn't matter rich or poor
or the things u done before
cause the race is all about
believing in urself

chorus:
and i dream
i can run like the wind
and be strong
when my heart just wants to give in
i dream i can be the hero that's in me
when i dream,
i dream

17/12
today is hui min birthday.. we went Orchard wid hui min, rachel, wai sum and christianna. rachel had a new phone.. so jealous, 3220 one.. quite nice, cos at the side dere got light and stuff. as usual, we walked almost the whole of orchard lyk siao.. and never buy anything =p well, only rachel bought something la.. den we went to Lido. met anne, she was working, oso saw aniszah, gina, wen feng and vanessa. yupp, later i went back. i noe, boring..

18/12
went to malaysia today.. i thought it would be lyk last time, where all we did was window shopping, but in the end, i was wrong. my dad bought rm100 worth of DVDs, wah shiok man, can stay at home and watch, dun hafta waste money on movies.. hehe.. and i bought a bag, that's the most productive thing I did.. cut hair oso, i thought there was much difference.. but when i went back singapore, my dumb cousin kept on saying: "no, no diff at all.." aniwae, who cares, well, it looks much neater now!

19/12
went for 7.30 mass, was so tired, dunno why, maybe im not very used to waking up early nowadays. but homily was interesting (FOR ONCE!) den now it's in the afternoon, my siblings haf gone for a party downstairs, quite boring, so i came up, now inn my cousin's house. haha, quess wad, i heard my name got called out in the lucky draw, so lucky, first time, hehe.. just hope the prize isn't some tupperware or photo frame, ew, so boring.. it's true.. ok, gtg now..

today is quite meaningful la.. cos i went to canossaville children home, yea, and i was thinkin that it was gonna be some sort of children's home or some orphanage and stuff. but to my surprise. it was nothing like that. when we got there, there were no children outside the gates there. so we went in, and we saw all the children rehearsing a christmas play. wow, you should have seen how happie they were. doesn't seem lyk children wid sad family backgrounds at all. but i gotta admit some children were rather mischievous. but that's wad make it so fun, and it seems that they really like being there wid all the company that they have. then was lunch time, we all sat down and eat. you should see their conduct, really, after lunch, they stood up, washed their dishes, dried their dishes wid a cloth, and put it ack to the rack. really really good good kids.. haha, i hafta say.. den it was time for the play.. quite boliao la, i was narrator (now you noe why) but everything went on smoothly. soon it was their turn to perform their play for us. i've gotta say, their play is a hundred times betta than ours. they sang all the carols wid all their heart, and wow, you can really feel the high spirits of all the kids. it's not easy and they mus haf worked hard. kudos to the little kids!!!
sometimes i think, children wid broken families or busy parents, sent to these kind of children's home, they seem more bonded because they are not spoilt by their parents. take the example or a boy from the children home and a boy who is an only children that has rich parents. the rich boy would face his gameboy and trading cards all day and behaves very anti-social. however, the poor boy, left at the children home, has nothing to fascinate or entertain himself, and ends up playing with other kids to entertain himself. see the difference, the poor boy ends up being the more sociable one. so afterall, being in a children's home might not entirely be a bad thing, right? that is, if you look from another point of view.
it ended quite early i must say. after dat, my mum brought me n my sis to ang mo kio POSB bank. for wad? to make an ATM card.. mwahaha, im so happy, i suddenly feel so grown up. hehe, took lyk 45mins, cos the bank was closing and the crowd was big.
=) yesterday jacqueline foo called me, haha, she got the EAGLES award. I was lyk... huh? you got the EAGLES? how can? i didn't get leh.. okok, i dun mean to be so bad. den i told her i havent check my letterbox for a few days le, so i went down to see. true enough... haha, i got eagles as well.. haha, so happy, at least got some achievement thru out my 2 yrs in npcc. at least it didn'y go down the drain. well, eunice is in aussie, so she havent check mail, i think she oso have.. haha. im so happy...

Hahahaha.. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! ! ! muackz!!! lol..

ahhhhhhh... feel so much more satisfied with this new template.. at least not so childish.. haha.. im so happie, found a template with my favourite song. yeah!!! mus say thanks to yue ying, for helping her darlin senior change. yup, i think the boy look very poor thing, guess he must haf fallen off his bike, that's why. =D
a couple of reasons why i'm happie today. one of them is cos i changed my template, second is cos me mum just told me good news. haha, she said if i continue working for her till the rest of the month, she'll gif me 100 bucks. whoa, im so happie!!! but can't afford to splurge la, cos it's considered quite little. ai ya, dunno wad to write le, shall stop here.

What's the big fuss about Singapore Idol? Isn't it stated very, extremely clearly that Taufik Batisah is ALREADY crowned the Singapore Idol. No doubt He Sings VERY WELL.

ok. enough. this topic is on its way to extinction. Period. NO more say on it.

ok, let's see.. sooo many things happened.

It started on las saturday. 04/12.

went for church camp. reported at 8am and they started only at 9.30. wow, wad a short wait.
anyway, we played ice-breaker games, and i can tell you, everyone was lyk stoning. you look atme, i look at you. only our 2 facils were talking. well, wad do you expect right?

then we set off for our scavenger hunt. quite lame la, we had to go all around hougang to hunt for stuff, lame stuff, and we ended up at Hougang. haha, we had to find things lyk 10 strands of white hair, so offensive right, to that person whom we got the white hair from. and we had to find a credit card. we obviously couldn't find it coz all of us were literally broke. however, me, the genius, came up with a brilliant idea. haha, the thought of it makes me laugh. in the end we went to OCBC bank and took a brochure, then tear our a credit card from the brochure. .... ... ... fine, not funny, but it was really funny then.

let me recall, wad were some of the things. one very difficult-to-find item was an 8-days magazine. we combed the whole hougang central saloons and clinics but could not find a single 8-days magazine. good thing we met one of our frens and she bought for us. (we were oso not allowed to bring money to buy the items) run and run and run.. but ended up 4th. that's bad, cos there were only 6 groups.

haiz, then after lunch was water games, wad can i say, the facils were using chin chow and bandung and worst of all, coffee in plastic bags to splash us. ewww, so sticky in the end. good thing only legs kana, i cant imagine if the whole body gets soaked in coffee. so wet, there was soap, shampoo, those drinks i mentioned earlier on and wad have you. loads of fun though.

at night we had praise and worship session. so fun, jump and jump around. after that was some race. i forgot wad was it called. aniwae, you should be able to imagine, a race was bad enough, now it's in the dark, within a church with 150 years history, whoa, that's way way worse. for my group, it was really sad case, cos we were misled. there was an error somewhere and we sort of had to start from scratch. but facils on the away helped us big time. so it made life easier for us. well, i made a new discovery, the area next to the sacristy is haunted, that's wad all altar boys say, and we kinda witnessed it ourselves. goodness, so haunted and dark.
finally ended. haha, we were all to tired to bathe, so we ended up sleeping in our sticky clothes.

next day,was the real amazing race, from hougang ave10 all the way to ave 2. no public transport for your info.
well, we didn't bathe, cos we knew we would get sweaty during the race. so ya..
im so happy, we ended up third this time. though it isn't any top position, im glad we did improve. this is called team work! :)

lunch time, we were all looking forward to it.cos everyone was so hungry, nasi lemak, and it was really very lemak. but everyone still eat, cos.. you noe why...

den we finally got to bathe, wah!!! really had a good good bath. not sweaty anymore. nice.
when everyone was done, it was prize giving. we were... 3rd. not so bad la. haha, mus an wei zi ji..

went for mass, went home.. slept at 8.30pm.
ihatethatbitch



then came monday, 06/12.
went for SANA course. i was so reluctant to wake up. but had to cos it's thru this course then i can earn my SANA badge. so force myself to wake up.
the course was soooooo boring, but for the sake of my badge, cannot don't want. yes, but hold on. it's only 2 days. it's nothing right! well, 2 lectures in a roll, one lecture b4 lunch, one after lunch. it couldn't haf been more boring than that.

DAY 2 07/12
las day, las day!! my grp was supposed to perform a skit. wah heng ar, we volunteered ourselves to be the second group to perform. anxiety was soon over after that. but honestly, the other 16 skits were rather boring. I think ours was the best. :) hahah ooh, one more thing, i passed the SANA course written test. well actually, all of us pass. im so happie, one step closer to earning that badge.

yipee!!!!!


09/12
finally met you!!! haha, not so tall, not so short la. normal.. first time la, i was lyk mute lor.. hehe, so sorrie. walk and walk and walk, from dhoby ghaut, to somerset. ooh, i finally noe that meridien hotel actually lies between plaza sing and centrepoint, yea yea, im so sua ku. and i also finally noe that the "control station is in the INSIDE of the MRT. please dun call me stupid, although i am. haha, thanks ar! walk all the way to cine, where a finally found lao die they all.

we walked out of cine cos there was no nice show to watch. we wanted go lido. den halfway, 3 of them wanted go taka shopping (even tho they knew they could not afford anything).. so laodie, serene and i went lido to see if there were good movies.
Disappointment! nothing to watch, i wanted to watch saw, but they don't want, so we ended up shopping downstairs, oh my goodness, it was so boring, you don't noe how boring it was. then we walked out. walked in and out of all the nike shops, adidas shops, Fila shops, puma, ripcurl, quiksilver, roxy, Fox, stussy shops, and came down to one conclusion, we were too broke for anything. yup. well, i need a wallet. i saw one adidas one, not very expensive, almost wanted to buy, but i found out that sharon as an identical one. haiz, so in the end i gave it a miss.
oh, i found out something. paul frank is ugly. haha, very ugly. that dumb monkey, haha, elizabeth's boyfren.
we walked out of pacific plaza wid our heads down. we went DFS, so see only. whoa, you won't believe how much one small box of chocs cost. i guess you won't wanna guess either. it's 40 bucks. dat's daylight robbery for us locals, but to those japs, it was jus small fry. oh ya, and those small cans of tiger balm, they were selling 6 cans for $22, wah lau, i could easily get one can for $1.50, and here they are paying more than double. anyway, that's how the government earn money right. our singapore government is smart. brilliant.

den we went fareast. serene wanted to go cafe and sit. and she wanted open air. haiz, we walked out and went to those open-air cafes. she and laodie ordered iced coffee to quench thirst. but ended up more thirtsy. haha, one small cup cost 5 bucks and their hearts were aching after they drank. so sad... i pity my fellow "cafe-mates", good thing i was smart, didn't buy, cos i had a bad bad experience before... ...

we went back to heeren to look for the 3 of them. they went back, so me alodie serene went take neoprints. eh.. i think it was ugly, cos of my SPASTICATED face. after dat we went home. tired..

readbetweenthelines

I am right now in the ofiice. yupp, where else can I be other than the office.. let's see, it's 1.14pm and it's lunch time. But i have yet to go for lunch. and im surprisingly not hungry, tho i ate breakfast at 8. that's a good sign.

it's quite relaxing today. eunice is saying, "you have nothing else betta to rite izzit?" and the answer from me is "yes". it's boring, the office is so quiet cos there's no phone calls and we no longer need to encounter those horrid gatekeepers. and I'm too lazy to go down for lunch altho lunch hour will be over soon.

lyk I was saying, it's actually very relax today.just checked some webbies for company names and stuff, and Im still thinkin abt Taufik and his win.

He didn't seem to win anything other than the "Singapore Idol" title. same as sylvester, both got the artiste records contracts and also the BMG records contract. by the way, the BMG contract thing is actually for the winner, and guess wad! the ppl in charge of the BMG contract thing were expecting Sly to win.oh please open your eyes WIDE la, how can this act cool buay cool guy be our singapore idol. well, I do noe of some, i dont wish to say names, some ppl who are racists. and although they cant stand sylvester, they would rather vote for sylvester than the malay, taufik. wad is this!!! so much for our singapore pledge: "... regardless of RACE, LANGUAGE OR RELIGION..."If there are racists in Singapore, wad's the point of a "multi-racial" country??? defeats the purpose and meaning of our so-called "multi-racial" country right.

and tok wad crapp, wanna introduce sylvester into the chinese music industry. someone please tell slyvester to reflect or something lyk that. oh my goodness, slyvester, being a chinese, cant even speak proper mandarin. I'm not saying this because im bias or whatsoever. I saw this morning chinese news, "zhao an ni hao", yupp, coincidentally switched to channel8. then i saw the hot topic to the town, the two idol finalists, being interviewed on yesterday's final showdown. yupp, then they asked slyvester first... well, you should have seen how slyvester replied, he was literally blabbing broken-mandarin, and at the same time a bit of english. well, from my point of view, he's a disgrace to us chinese. maybe the directors of BMG records should reconsider abt giving sly this contract. good thing they didn't wan to introduce sly into the english-music industry. his english is, wad can i say, Atrocious for one thing sure.i sill remember when he sang "I swear", Florene Lian said, "you were singing the chinese-version of I swear" this goes to show that sly's performance is actually mediocre and he's niether here nor there. sings neither well in english songs nor chinese songs. when he sang An Jing, cannot even hear the lyrics! oops, i forgot, Zhou Jie lun's songs can never be heard, or sung clearly.

but, taufik is different! he excels in both english songs and malay songs. yes, please agree with me.and he has the X-factor as well.

but then again, maybe not all Singaporeans are racists I must admit. i saw the 5 girls wearing the white bridal clothers wid banners saying "marry me taufik".. goes to show that taufik actually oso has ARDENT CHINESE fans.

okok, shall stop now. Im going back to work..

Ciao~

Hold On Little Girl
Show Me What He's Done To You
Stand Up Little Girl
A Broken Heart Can't Be That Bad
When It's Through, It's Through
Fate Could Twist The Both Of You
So Come On Baby Come On Over
Let Me Be The One To Show You

I'm The One Who Wants To Be With You
Deep Inside I Hope You'll Feel It Too (Feel It Too)
Waited On A Line Of Greens And Blues (Waited On A Line)
Just To Be The Next To Be With You

Build Up Your Confidence
So You Can Be On Top For Once
Wake Up Who Cares About
Little Boys That Talk Too Much
I've Seen It All Go Down
Your Game Of Love Was All Rained Out
So Come On Baby, Come On Over
Let Me Be The One To Hold You

I'm The One Who Wants To Be With You (I'm The One, Yeah)
Deep Inside I Hope You'll Feel It Too (Feel It Too)
Waited On A Line Of Greens And Blues (Waited On A Line , Yeah)
Just To Be The Next To Be With You

Why Be Alone
When We Can Be Together Baby
You Can Make My Life Worthwhile
I Can Make You Start To Smile

(Instrumental)

When It's Through , It's Through
Fate Could Twist The Both Of You
So Come On Baby, Come On Over
Let Me Be The One To Show You ...

I'm The One Who Wants To Be With You (I'm The One)
Deep Inside I Hope You'll Feel It Too (Feel It Too)
Waited On A Line Of Greens And Blues (Waited On The Line)
Just To Be The Next To Be With You

I'm The One Who Wants To Be With You (I'm The Ooooone)
Deep Inside I Hope You'll Feel It Too (Deep Inside, You'll Feel It Too)
Waited On A Line Of Greens And Blues (Waited On That Line , Yeah)
Just To Be The Next To Be With You

Just To Be The Next To Be With You

Taufik Batisah is the Sole Winner for Singapore Idol.

That's was wad Singapore crowned him as. So wad's the big problem?

hahahahaha, Singapore voted, Taufik is gonna represent Singapore for World Idol.

Im behind you all the way!!!!

you're better than that cat.

I don't wanna close my eyes

I don't wanna fall asleep

'Cause I'd miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

'Cause even when I dream of you

The sweetest dream would never do

I'd still miss you, baby

And I don't wanna miss a thing

Wheeeee!!!

No more gatekeepers for me anymore. I've progressed to talking to the MD themselves. good good. now everyone's happie, except elizabeth, who has big time problem communicating to those MDs in chinese. haha, me and eunice had no problem, nevermind, jia you and brush up on your chinese. I m sure you can do it.
But secretaries are a bit of a bother though, but it's quite easy to ba ta men shuai diao. hehe, I learnt the technique le.

Now not only no more gatekeepers, no more MDs as well. we've done the entire list and now it's checking the companies at Jobs DB and Job street. phew, it's so much easier. at least it's not direct communication, which is damn freaking scary!

Today is my first time doing full time in office. when the hours get long, it's boring and your mind drifts away from work.. especially since your work loads doesn't require being engrossed in it. I haven't gone swimming in a long time, but... I'm still darker than elizabeth!! haiz, nevermind, as wad I usually say, yao jia ba jing, I'll alwayz be behind in no matter wad you do ya... lol..

Then had lunch. then Finished lunch. okok, then went into the car, oh my goodness, the radio was playing "I don't want you back", shit shit shit. I was praying that they don't hear the song. cos they'll go lyk "ai yoh, this kind of song oso haf ar, this is very bad you noe.. blah blah" but thank GOD!!! they were talking abt business stuff, phew, eliz and I heave a BIG sigh of relief........ then, suddenly the car became quiet coz they ended their convo. oh no oh no, they're gonna hear it. they're gonna hear it!!! panic-stricken, everyone jus kept quiet, "f**k you you whore, I don't want you back." music continued, wah heng ar!!! my parents could not make known the lyrics, so they didn't say anything. my parents are very very strict, if they heard, my dad will really lecture big time man. wad an experience.

elizabeth has done her shift already. she has gone to paly basketball wid lao die n the others. Im now in the office waiting for eunice to begin the 2-6pm shift. quite tired alr, started work at 9.30 today wid eliz earlier on. let's see, 9.30 to 1pm is 3 1/2 hours. then from 2 to 6pm is 4 hours. wah!!! that means i'll be working for 7 1/2 hours today. hmm, hao you cheng jiu gan...

ok, shall stop now, facing too much radiation on the comp now. It's bad for my eyes and I'm gonna leave now.

cos eunice is here..

=)

Last friday was bad, I mean BAD!!!

Nobody was free to go town with me. Thanks a lot to LTC, brenda could not go, eliz was too lazy, baby wong wanted to go collect her zhou jie lun tix and everyone was too poor to go orchard. sad right. anyway, i managed to pull Dawn to go out with me, thank yew, bestest junior!! yes, she pei wo walk almost the whole of Orchard. so nice of her.

first we walked the whole of Cineleisure, well, not say the whle of it la, it's the first 3 levels, coz i could not afford to watch movies. then we went Heeren, walked the whole of it, this time, I mean the WHOLE of Heeren. and, we did not buy a single thing, amazing eh! then, we got bored, bored bored bored!!! big time bored, so we walked all the way from Heeren to Taka, Ngee Ann City there. so cool, there were lyk 3 basketball matches going on there and oso got girls playing matches. I saw one girl from our school as well. so cool, those guys were so tall that they could touch the net (well, that's why they're called basketball players right?) anyway, I could never touch the net in a million years. and the 3-pointer shoots as well, really pei fu, kudos to them!!! yupp, then we watched the match for lyk 1 hour, then got kind of sian, so went into taka, we wanted to go into the LouisViutton shop, but when we saw that it's those type of place where there are those security guards opening the door for you, we expected that if we went in, we were expected to buy something, so we were kind of yk having second thoughts. then we went to the foor section of taka, dawn bought 2 cream puffs. nah, not appealing to me..

then we got out of taka, then continued watching the match. then we went Wisma, then walked and walked and walked and walked to Far East. there was totally nothing to do, went into this cafe, dawn wanted to drink something and she made me queue up to get her a drink, when asked wad drink she wanted, said, "anything" so I went to buy Iced Mocha, thought it would taste nice, but, ewww, so bitter. Poor dawn, spent $4.90 on such a horrible drink. Maybe we didn't noe how to appreciate the drink..

then we went to the Turkish restaurant, had the beef pizza, dunno how it's pronounced in turkish terms. anyway, I bought Dawn a can of Ice lemon tea as compensation for that horrif Iced Mocha.

then itw as time for dawn to go home, thanks for your company, although it was still so boring. then I waited for my mum to fetch me cos she say wanna bring me to some concert thing, so I walked and walked, from shaw, to wheelock, to Tangs, to... well, the whole to Orchard, and i walked all the way to Hilton Hotel there, the Thai Embassy there. I was so sua ku, walked until Tanglin Road. then I walked back all the way back to wheelock and wisma atria, then I walked to Paragon, there were two bands playing, cool, music was quite nice, quite noisy too, well, it's rock song, wad do you expect..

then i received a call from my mum, telling me that the concert actually starts at 7, so it's lyk extremely late le, so she could not fetch me, and I had to go home myself. Argh!!! I could imagine the crowd and everything, especially at the NS line. haiz, nightmare.anyway, after changing to the NEL, it was better, i had a seat, amazingly.. then went home..

ahhhhhh, home sweet home..





then on sunday [28/11/04]

went to church as usual, but pon lectors, cos it starts at 9am and i went for St anne's church mass which was aslo at 9am. yes yes, purposely, I hate lectors meeting, so boring, all lector member when you read this pls dont scold me, I'm stating a fact. anyway, after that, went for lunch wid my mum, sis, bro, aunty, and grandma, had korean food, so spicy, all the kim chi and stuff. then went Woodlands Civic plaza, the library, nice, very nice, four levels, not lyk Hougang, one level only. nice books as well, but i could not find the Rich Dad Poor Dad book, sad. nvm, borrowed Anne frank book, although I haven't overcome the trauma of reading her books and looking at her picture. freaky.

then we went Causeway Point. jus walked and walked as usual. wanted to buy a new wallet, but my mum said no.

then we went back all the way to the east part of Singapore. to East coast, the Lagoon there. the food there was great. so much to eat, i ate laksa. delicious, got satay also, but we gave it a miss. anyway, very full le, so went home and watch six weeks. nice show, very interesting show, but very sad. must watch. it's a sad sad sad show, filled with sorrow and depress.

ok, that's all for now.

no more gatekeepers for me !!!

It's rather boring nowdays.. haiz, everyday go and talk on the phone and ask for those MD names.. so scary can. haiz, gatekeepers jiu shi gatekeepers, so fierce for wad, all I ask for is just a name wad, ask so many questions for wad. anyway, for majority of them, i managed to get wad i want.. hehe, actually, it's quite fun lar. an experience that is rare esp since im jus a student.

Today is the "Polar Express" First Day in cinemas.. ok, you may think im childish, but I really wan to watch. Looks very lyk got christmas de qi fen. dat's wad i need to feel now, the christmas mood, it's so boring nowadays especially at home and no chiristmas mood at all. Maybe I haven't been to Orchard Rd in a long time le bah, whole day coop up in a small shell, if not jiu shi go to dat place where I hafta talk to those gatekeepers.. sian!!! I haf to get a life.

I like Sum 41!!! I think it's those two ppl influence me during the chalet.. I think the lyrics is so meaningful, and if not dat person dat help me burn that cd, I probably wont be so into dat song. thank you all!!!

Been listening to the radio a lot. THis morning Perfect 10 morning madness interviewed Taufik and Slyvester. Sylvester was late for the show by 45mins.. haha.. and yesterday they interviewed Olinda. yupp, and she sang Rod Steward (did i spell it rite?) song.. so nice. I think Taufik is gonna be Singapore Idol. haha, sorrie to all sly fans, I speaking the truth. Den I coincidentally saw the newspaper LIFE section today, guess wad, Olinda dreamt dat she would get knocked out during the final 3 performance, and she did, wad a bad omen.. so sad.. Also dunno why Im so into S'pore Idol nowadays, so unlike me. Anyway, it'll all be over after 1st dec..

I hate gatekeepers.. Please don't be one.

Sign: rowena

nice...


Take everything left from me
All to blame
How can we still succeed, taking what we don't need
Telling lies, alibis, selling all the hate that we breed
Supersize our tragedy (you cant define me, or justify greed)
Bought in the land of the free (land, free)
And we're all to blame
We've gone too far
From pride to shame
We're trying so hard
We're dying in vain
We're hopelessly blissful and blind
To all we are
We want it all with no sacrifice
Realize we spend our lives living in a culture of fear
Stand to salute and say thanks to the man of the year
How did we all come to this (you cant define me or justify greed)
Agreed that we just can't resist (resist)
And we're all to blame
We've gone too far
From pride to shame
We're trying so hard
We're dying in vain
We're hopelessly blissful and blind
To all we are
We want it all
Everyone wants it all with no sacrifice
Tell me now, what have we done, we don't know
I can't allow what has begun to tear me down
Believe me now, we have no choice left
With our backs against the wall
And now we're all to blame
We've gone too far
From pride to shame
We're hopelessly blissful and blind
When all we need
Is something true
To believe
Don't we all
Everyone
Everyone
We will fall
Cause we're all to blame
We've gone too far
From pride to shame
We're trying so hard
We're dying in vain
We want it all
Everyone
Don't we all

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here to blog.. very unlike me rite? okok, anyway, i noe this template is getting boring.. this blog is literally rotting.. erm, i think i need eliz to come help me wid the blogskin again. I totally dunno how to change skin.

Anyway, i went malaysia sunway wid family on 10-12th nov.. hahahas can skip 2 trainings, shiok man.. bet the rest r slogging lyk siao in training. okok, i shant be so mean. well, it was a misfortune in disguise, the trip. on Day2, we went sunway, den i was lyk on the float in the lazy river. den i was having my specs wid me, but i wasn't wearing my specs. den i came down from the float, not realising dat my spes had dropped into the water. DAMN SHIT!!! the specs flowed away coz of the current in the water. NEVER FOUND MY DAMN SPECS EVER AGAIN. Now everything's a blur. Worse still, when i gave up trying to find me specs, i went up n found out dat my slippers were oso missing. WTH!!! wad rotten luck man. there couldn't be a more misfortunate day. it was a totally bad bad bad bad day for me. In the end i had to go back to the hotel BAREFOOTED!!! so malu can. the receptionist, securities, tourists n passer-bys were lyk looking at my feet throughout. worst thing being dat the ground was so piping hot. wah lau, my feet was lyk chao-da can. haiz, but thank God, we reached the hotel fast. hurry up wash my feet. hehe..

the entire remaining journey was a total misery. haiz, we went to the revolving tower in KL, could see the whole sight of KL 360 degress. so cool, so sad i couldn't see a thing. but good thing the twin towers were big enough for a half-blind person lyk me to see. heng arh, at least not a wasted trip.. den we went to this distant aunt's house, wah, it's a bungalow, it's super big. everything was coated gold ok.. [even the toilet paper holder was coated gold colour] everything was shimmering bright and glowing. too bad i didn't have a clear view of that magnificent bungalow. BECAUSE OF MY SPECS!!! haiz, i shouldn't brood abt it la.. they had two living rooms, one big garden and a whole collection of porcelein figurines and all types of bells. yes, as in those type of ring-ring-ring bells. splendid!!! the whole house was air-conditioned. yup, and i was freezing big time. haha, shan't go on talking about it to make you all jealous. hehe..

las day.. ate bak-kut-teh.. had headache because of the weather. started the journey back at 3.45, reached home only at 9.30... causeway was the dragger. ok, shall stop now.. byez..

Do you ever wanna run away


Do you lock yourself in your room


With the radio on turned up so loud


that no one hears you screaming

do you wanna be somebody else


are you sick of feeling so left out


are you desperate to find something more


before your life is over

I am finally able to come online. but not at home la... haiz, it's so boring now dat there's no school. haiz, i should be very happy now dat there's no school, but it's like got nothing to do at home. and funny thing is dat i sort of want to go back to school. but when i go back to school for training, i totally dread it, maybe it's because of the tirng, dreadful, tedious, tough training dat we face. wah lau, do foot-drill barefooted, so idiotic.

went to costa sands for bbq on tuesday nite. but my parents dun allow me to stay ova nite. dere was loads of food to eat, n at the end of it we barbecued marshmallows, but a lot of it was melted. but overall quite fun la, den dat sum41 cd was played, n so malu, i only noe 2 verses of We're all to blame in the whole cd. lol..

it's sooooo boring................

Do you ever feel like breaking down Do you ever feel out of place Like somehow you just dun belong And no one understands you

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?

Are you sick of everyone around?

With the big fake smiles and stupid lies,

While deep inside you’re bleeding?

No you dont know what it’s like,

When nothing feels alright,

You dont know what it’s like,

to be like ME

im blogging now
though i dun want to
zakiah
happy now?
haha
SA2 is over
im overjoyed
im doing nothing but slacking
gotta go now
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rite?

im so lazieee to blog, but nevertheless, i will. CT juz over, den yesterday had farewell night. it was qute a short performance, well actually, it was very short. Still, well done seniors. But, next year, the sec3s will do a better job :p prepare to see a one-of-a-kind farewell nite next yr. den the next day was npcc games day, held at Holy High, saw a lot of ppl. my group was playing captain's ball. *sucks* dat stupid SSS ppl, i hate them. well at least we managed to score 2 las minute goals, better than nothing. den at tug-of-war, we lost to nan chiau n holy high, got third. den TT, yiying ma'am got 1st runner-up =) and rozario ma'am n Iryani got 1st runner-up for TT doubles =) quite okay la overall, but our morale was lyk so low, we were not enthu lor, coz we lost lost and lost. haha, saw ehem, marcus, he disappointed me big time. and den lion mane was lyk "chiobu" to rachel, rachel was lyk so malu-ed. haha, saw our PA frenz, but didn't tok to them coz they were so busy hosting their games. was dead beat when i reached home. -____-

ARGH!!! wad's wid my tagboard!!!

so many things to say, yet dunno how to say... haiz, unexplainable la... doubt anyone understands. im quite happy, got second for national field cooking comp, unexpected dat we'll beat Dunman high, but, nevertheless, we lost to Holy high. but i gotta admit, their presentation was better than ours. but we won best dressed award, thanks to Rachel, and her indian wear...  den some of moi frenz, dey were lyk, "rowena, next tyme u cook for me okay?" oh pls, im sure wid out e help of tang tang, deanna, jack n rachel, we could never haf got second in the nationals. 
i feel so guity, haf not been studying and haf been watching so much tv and sleeping so much, i scared i can't catch up wid my studies. worst thing that happened to me this week, maybe even in this whole month, i failed science CT big tyme, gawd, how can dat be, OBT leh, should be more manageble wad, aniwae, wad do u expect from me when there are only 4 ppl who passed in my class.
i think im picking up piano again, just borrowed Canon in D from Mindy and im practicing real hard, hmmm, really luv dat song, wanted to play it since las year, but dunno where to get the scores from.  thank god for mindy, so happened dat she was learning it. but it's so hard, and there are so many notes. but wid determination, NOTHING is impossible. n oso, aggie, e song dat u play, i managed to master it le!!! im such a genius!!! *applause** thank you thank you!!!
today had debate at mdm hassanah's lesson, so interesting, nicki, mel, nat were lyk at the side den they were givin me soooooo many info on the subject. btw, im in e peposition team for "why we think that National Day Parade is a waste of time and effort" and i got sooo many tips and clues, n when it was finally my turn to say, i was kainda speechless, but sharon was lyk, "relax relax" ha, so i said wadeva i saw on my notes... so fun, now i noe why khiu likes debating so much le.  
hmmm, dun u think dat 12 august is a multi-purpose day? ok, let's see, dat day we went on-site learning, i found out dat Benjamin Sheares and Yusof Ishak shared the same birthday, and it's on 12 august, den on 12 august 2004, it's oso e day dat Lee Hsien Loong become Prime Minister, and remember there was a man in one of the historical photos dat was reduced to bones, and he was a POW, dat man passed away on 12 August 2002. and in 4D, ppl are buying the numbers 1288 and 0128, isn't this a bit weird?
okok, maybe im superstitious, but isn't it a bit coincidental? nvm, guess im thinkin too much.
okok, signing off now, chiaoz...

Heyy ppl, rowena's back again in action after climbing the Himalayan Mt!!! i pitched the SJC flag on the peak, arent u all[sjc gals] proud of me!!! *tears rolling* okok, lame gal, back in action. ok, where do i start, now in the middle of june hols, or should i sae, almost the end of june hols... had POP trng for monday, tuesday n wednesday. whole afternoon was the duration for each trng. damn tough, YES!!! i got good new for everyone!!!I've been promoted to Corporal, u noe, 2 stripes! yupz, my hard effort has paid off!so on POP nite[29/06/2004], u will all see me go to the front and receive my promotion. the person that will be giving the awards out will be NPCC Commandant Superintendant Geraldine Tan. Cool man. In case u dunno hu izzit, this zha bo is the highest of the highest in NPCC, the Lao Da of the whole of NPCC in Singapore. Cool man!!! hahax, im so honoured, to get my award from her hands and shake her hand!!! okok, relax, the day will come.

ok, now for a review on how I spent my hols, on 15/6 i went Cheng San Library wid Liz n aggie, den we spent the whole afternoon shelving books, and arranging books, not an easy task, if u ask me, AND, the worst thing that happened to us was that we only had a 15min break!!! CHILD ABUSE!!! but at the end of the 5 hour Ordeal, we had "Hardworking" on the remarks column, students usually dun get any remarks written. so proud of myself. den on 1st June, went Sam's chalet, wah lau, whole afternoon, they were stuck to the mahjong table playing Mahjong. Boring!!!den at nite, sam cried coz we were lyk had some conflict wid some of the other ppl there. I felt so bad, coz lyk sam wanted e chalet to be a "success" den lyk we were not happy wid each other. But in the end it was ok. den we spent the whole nite playin Dai Dee, till 3am. den we [me n aggie] woke up at 7.30am den play dai dee wid gina n sheeda[dunno how to spell].

Then on 3rd June-5th June, we had UG camp, SUCKS BIG TIME!!! for everything we did, muz be rush and muz run, cannot walk, not lyk las year, the snrs were so nice n much more lenient. haha, the most unimaginable thing was that, i got the best Camper award!!! I m so proud of myself. **clapps** **clapps** THank you thank you everyone!!! I wud lyk to thank my father, my mother, my mentors... ... [crapp] [crapp] [and] [more] [crapp] okok, cut the crap! then at the end of everything, we were each given a bottle of coke[i drink finish le] and the sad thing being, some ppl say their coke taste sour, means it's expired, good thing mine tasted ok!

Wah lAU, rite so much, hand veh tired, shall stop here! Sayonara!!!

Heyy heyy people... rowena's finally back... after 10 000 years of roaming in the Sahara dessert. hahax, im crappin, well, thks to all who bothered to cum to my blog to remind me to update, esp those who were "forced" to...
haiz, too many things happened liaoz, dat my mind is gonna explode. lyk mid year juz went by, n i did horrendously bad in the exams, and i mean very badly, but not that bad until get kicked out of G lar... but it's bad enuff. okay okay, shan't crap further...
a few daes ago, we heard dat sjc has been chosen as GOH for the 150 anniversary celebration in CHIJMES, i was so enthu abt it lor... was literally in to it, jus had to participate in the grand event, but of all tymes, they decided not to let np gals join, WHY WHY WHY???!!! it's lyk a dream to becum GOH lor, sniff, y cannot, den those p[pl who were chosen we those who were unwilling... wad is this, hmpf!!! for once i really hate mrs elan and mrs angelina tan(they decided on the participants)... aniwae, i haf long gotten ova it... wad's done cannot be undone. i juz haf to face it! on e las dae of skool, we went st anne's for a founder's dae mass. it waz followed by a gospel singing competiton. 4F/H emerged 1st, their singing really rocked, big tyme man. then after dat aggie, hui min, polar, janetta and many more of us went back to OLN, on e wae there, we took 119, and guess who we saw... ... ... ... Farhana... hahaha, had a good luff on the bus and we went back to OLN together. haiz, but she went home halfwae coz she couldn't find her malay teacher... aggie n i saw a couple of teachers, huang lao shi, mrs sharidah Lim, mrs serena lee, ms chong, ms ang lili, n ms nor... we missed them so much, and all of them gotta BIG shock when they saw aggie cut her hair... mrs sharidah lim: oh aggie, where is your beautiful long hair? huang lao shi:ni wei she me bian cheng zhe yang, hen xiang nan hai zi leh [translate: wad happened to you, u look lyk a boy leh] ms nor: OMG, now u look lyk a boy leh, las tyme u got long hair dat tyme look so cute. ms chong: aggie, wad happened to your hair? wad did u do to it? haha, these are some of the speeches dat the teaches "conducted" when they saw aggie. interesting ritez, still got a lot, juz dat i forgot... good thing the teachers didn't gasp so much when they saw me, coz i pri5 dat tyme once oso got short hair... ha, aggie, it muz haf been hard on u... hmmm, but over all, we had a good tyme catching up wid the teachers... esp mrs serena lee, always so caring, preaching dat we should always study hard. [she taught me science in p6]
okie, hands are feelin tired le, shall stop here... ciaoz...

yesterdae was one of the most memorable daes of my life... it was... the npcc dae parade!!!yeah, wah laoz, lotsa ppl can... den everyone lyk eyeing on me, so wei feng can!!! everything when well,the ma'am praise us!!! so sad it was e las dae,`den the ppl we met dere it was the las tyme we see dem... sniff... hui ying, lion mane... u rock!!! contingent 4 rocks.. contingent 4 rocks!!! area 7 rocks area 7 rocks... yesh siti ma am rocks!!! haiz now at christi hm doin project.. gtg le

yesterday had PA trng, dat was probably the best and the worst trng... it all happened becoz our trng today was special, it started in the afternoon, from 1pm-8pm... den we had kinda lyk a lecture in a lecture room, hahax, air-conditioned one!!! so happy, den at 2.30pm, we had a full-dress rehearsal in half-uniform, den at 4.30pm, we took a break and had our EXTREMELY early dinner... den at 5.30, we finished our dinner and when back to the lecture room where our bags where, den we changed to our full-uniform... wah lao, the sirs dere were lyk so shuai in the white uniform can! SO shen qi lorx, im to jalous, our skool didn't get the gld award for overall unit proficiency, so sad, den we cannot be guard-of hounour (GOH)... den we cannot wear the white uniform, JEALOUS JEALOUS ME!!! den we had the full dress rehearsal from 5.45 to 7pm, den SUDDENLY... when after it was over, one or two ppl started to feel lyk, stomach ache, den when we march back to the parade square, ppl started vomitting, wah, den the floor lyk got 3-4 ppl puke, den i found out dat ppl were havin food poisoning, summore it was already at nite, den we had to watch out for the pukes... argh!!1 den we kinda had a treat... because in the first few trngs, we had kaya n red bean bun during break time, den today they wanted to treat us to a better snack, so they gave us apples. we were supposed to take the apples from the lecture room. den when we change back to our normal attire, we went to haf our apples, den all my frenz took the apple, den there were a few boys surrounding the boxes of apples, den they were saying, "xiao xing the apples are poisonous!" in a sarcastic manner, i was not bothered by that remark though, but when i saw dat the apples majority were rotten at the side, i decided not to eat, den my area (Area 7) the ppl suddenly got a lot of them haf stomach ache, den 10 minutes later, one of the ma'am told us to stop eating the apples, but by dat tyme, many ppl had already eaten thier apples le... den a lot of ppl where sent to sick bay, clara, macrina, agnes, carol, shen yang, fu sheng... etc... almost haf of the ppl in the bus were taken to sick bay and eventually, tan tock seng hospital...haiz so sad, the bus was in a miserably quiet state... most of all, 5 ppl from SSS where sent to TTSH, it's dat serous... so sad, den i also kinda feel a squinch in my stomach, but good thing i did not vomit... by the tyme i reached home it was already 10++, den e next dae, so sleppy... //

Just back from PA... trng sucks lyk hell as usual, coz of that idiotic ma'am... always sayin the word bloody... oh wadeva! so wads wid dragging boots, lame shit... then we had our shooting practice... haiz, im so disappointed, I anyhow shoot, I forgot to wait for the first and second clicks... ARGH!!! den the second round when I reloaded then I remember lorx... coz I was lyk trembling when i touched the bullets and the gun... solid siaz... then later by the tyme we reached back the parade square, the ppl were lyk goin home liaoz, den we took our baggies n went to eat lunch... den we actually went for SYF selection lorx, den they were lyk askin for the tall girls, den I tot everyone would have a chance to try out, den they chose baby wong, meena, deanna and CJY! NOT FAIR!!! then they nv let tanggie n I try, we were lyk the next tallest peepz.. kaoz! so angry, wasted my whole afternoon for studying for CT, well, god thing it has been postponed to wednesday, hahax, 2 more daes to study! thanks teachers!!! I luv you all! good thing i still in PA trng... but next wed haf to leave skool early, coz we gotta reach Holy high at 1pm, den go trng at PA until at nite! haha, dn got dinner provided, FREE FOOD!!! (to gracia, chicken, remember?!)
okok, I shan't continue crapping, gtg le, buaiz, muakz to all I luv... n aggie, happy B dae!!!

now at hm baking fer NYAA... wid eliz... choc chip muffins... YUMMY... DELICIOUS... but only got 11... sooo 1st cum 1st serve, hmmm, so happy, got 42/50 for chinese.... SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!(NOT SHOWING OFF) yupz, den now updating mi bloggy... Bored... beginning to lyk Jay chou, n his qing tian... sooo hao ting... GO eliz bloggy hear if u lyk e song as well:http:// blacksheep258.blogspot.com... oh ya, btw, pls pray for me on fri, sat n sun, coz im goin for my adventure trng camp, to all those out dere, seeing my blog, MUZ pray fer me, n the others... thanks... coz we're goin pulau Ubin AGAIN... I miss xiao hei, xiao bai n xiao he... hahax, gonna see dem again (for ur info, those r doggies) so wish me luck, coz if i go through this camp, im able to get a badge for npcc, so wish me luck kz... thanks... kk, tyme to go le...

haiz, PA trng is gettin tougher n tougher... marched round the parade square 4 tymes yesterday... could haf killed me... but alas we haf trnged up to e standard...hahax... den later went cp wid cjy, rome round the whole cp, den went blk 121 dat RC, teach abacus to lil kids wid skk, had fun though, den earned $10... muahahahaha!!! $_$, lurve money... today woke up at 7.45... amazing, didn't noe i could wake up so early... den now riting moi blog.... it's only 8.51 now!!! i attending mass at 11.15. den 10am goin for lectors meetin, BORING!!! but no choice... okie, signin out now,

now in the midst of ct, wanna kill me arh, juz finish history test, heave a sigh of RELIEF... wah, dunno y but im lyk veh sleepy nowadays... haha... so happy, a lot of oln girls cum to sjc... at least i got company now... went wid eliz eunice to taco bell at heartland mall juz now, the food was horrid, actually i gotta coupon from LIME den i go one, if not i can't be bothered to even waste my tyme dere, the food was horrendous... i will nv go dere again. YES... tmr is fridae n the following dae is saturday, Yea!!! can go PA... i dunno why but i lyk trng... haha... not coz of boyz hor... ya... den sunday... free day, at least... but tmr got maths n geog ct, hmmm, shud be studying now, but dunno y i lyk not in e mood... LAZY...but i cannot fail, coz next year my aim is to go triple science class,so i must work exexexextra hard...

today is the las dae of the first month of a new year. spent my dae quite well. morning went PA trng, den later went hm, den later godma came fetch me go downtown, den we checked in, den we change den went swimming, i spet almost all my tyme sun bathing, fun siaz... den i became quite tan, but not very, den we went for dinner, den now ikm hm, u muz be wondering ehy, coz tmr i gotta go church, den nativity in hougangg den my sis tmr morn got cat class, so we haf to go hm. so many sad tings happen, tsy transfer out, den now im lyk begging ppl cum to e chalet coz im lyk super bored, and i can't find a single soul to come except eliz... haiz, eliz, u're such a good pal, alwayz there when i need u the most... luv yew... bleahx... haha, den my sis gonna invite her frenz, den im gonna be lyk so damn extra. i can't stand it, if any one is reading this, and is free tmr, pls contact me via msn. kam sia... i will lurve you foreva. thks

"Numb" by Linkin Park

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

[Chorus]
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Tired of being what you want me to be

todae's cny, but it seems dat im not enjoying myself... chinese new year... so wad... juz went for mass, den my grandma's hm, den went my aunt's hm, den my grandma's(mother side) hm eat lunch. nothin much, now im using my cousin comp riting my bloggy. Boring, den the hong bao money i collect muz gif my mum, den play dai dee cannot play wid money, wad is this... Boring, everyone is havin a great tyme except moi. den mr chang oso didn't gif us hong bao, NOT FAIR!!! all moi teachers all got gif us las tyme one... den yesterday went back oln visit huang lao shi, good thing she waz still dere, mi, si ting, josephione chatted wid her 4 abt 10 mins, den she drove off, sae wad muz cook for her jia po... haiz... den i play netball for a short while, den i saw malita, gracia n farhana cum back, farhana hair short man, siao, almost lyk valerie chua... den we played netball till 12pm. den at nite my parents sae wanna go chinatown see the fire crackers, den we oso followed lorz, den we went at 10pm. guess wad tyme we came back??? 11.19pm! so early lorx, can't believe it can. so early might as well not go, my dad sae too crowded, he can't take it. wad crap, den i obviously can't tok back at him. den juz follow lorx. this is really a boring cny... :(

very long nv update liaoz, went for a 3 day camp, i dunno, to many ppl it sucked, but to moi, it waz kinda fun... ok, im lame... but i really had an experience of a life tyme for sum activities, lyk kayaking, i admit it's my 1st tyme, i was kinda scares of e waves n currents, but overcame e fear later, i went 2 rounds, so cool... den i did rope element, not many ppl did it, i waz one of e few who did, this was my first tyme standing so high on ropes... i was the only one shaking and trembling, and everyone was lyk so relax on top -_-"... den e food was ok... well, i m kinda lyk a rubbish dump, i can consume anything. the instructors were oso veh fun. first nite we were supposed to haf nite walk, but becoz gotta rain, den it waz cancelled, heng arh!!! i so scared of dark lorz... den we spent the whole nite singing cheers. the cheers were lame, but i luved them, den oso dunno why i lyk veh enthu lyk dat lor. den the orienteering oso great fun. we got to choose our own grp, den i obviously grped wid eunice n hui min, den we got this instructor, Faizal, kinda lame, but very funny, den we sang cheers all e way, so fun, he led us to all the stamp points, but we still emerge 3rd, but overall still enjoyed it larz, den... ... ... CAMPFIRE NITE!!! yeah, it was quite fun, but they dun haf frenship dance, it would be better if they sang it, but good thing they sang "your side"... den dat nite when i abt to sleep dat tyme hui min ask me wanna go aggie tent bunk in or not, den i sae ok lor, den it was kinda lyk full house in e tent lor, 9 ppl in all, aggie, tsy, eliz, eng hui min, tan hui min, melissa, silvier, priscilla, n moi... den we were lyk tellin dirty jokes den tsy was lyk "rowena, i noe u're fantasizing" HELLO... im not ok! im still virgin. pure n innocent... KEY WORDZ: PURE AND INNOCENT... yup, den rather glad dat it waz finally tyme to go hm. i miss my bed, comp, family etc... but sad coz we had to leave e camp, instructors and all e fun, but i m gonna be back in feb for adventure training camp for npcc, shit, gonna be damn stress... all these in a nutshell, (im queer) I LUV CAMP!!!

today, all i haf to sae is, BORING, why is my life becoming lyk this? It really sux!!! argh, den we oso gotta boring, and i mean really boring, teacher... He is lyk, bleahx, forget it. den we went to e hall, stupid chow leng choo, tok and tok and she still doesn't realise NO ONE, i really mean it, NO ONE was listening to her lorx, only the teachers, we were all practically Sleeping... zzz... den later we went to the gym, AGAIN!!! another BORING TALK from chow. about cca, something about leaps, crap, wasn't listening at all, den finally can be released, den i went heartland mall meet my sis, eat sakae sushi, coz we gotta $10 voucher. den nothin much liao lorz...

Haiz wad can i sae, this is one of the WORST countdown(s) i haf eva had in my whole entire life. Im lyk rotting in the middle of no where at home. this year's countdown is sooooooo damn boring. All I did was watch the nation's countdown and look at dem enjoy demselves havin a great tyme. sent quite a lotta smses... dat was practically the onli ting i could do. the show ended at 12.15... BORING den on the next dae my dad woke the whole household up at (u're not gonna believe it) 7AM. does he want my life, it's sooo early, den we went for the new year's day mass in church, the worst thing is that the celebrant or priest was fr Peter Lu(from china), his accent is very chinese and i could not even listen to a single word he says, i kinda slept wid my eyes open the whole tyme through... den later we went to Macdonalds, had hotcakes... den we went hougang pool, so fun, i put lotsa dark tanning oil... den we swim n swim, from 11.30-12.30. den we had a break at the canteen, coz it was raining, more lyk drizzling, den we went back to the pool, den, ARGH, it started drizzling again, den 30mins later, we went home, so it was boring after all, not a single party at all, im really rotting, going through the process of decomposition... ... ...