i hate him.
i hate them.
stop thinking you are so right,
and that the whole bloody world should revoive around you.
just because you have no life and you
willing slave yourself to this shit,
dont implicate people who do have a life,
and want to live it to the fullest.
and just because you pledged yourself to HELL,
dont assume that others people are willing to do likewise.
you enjoy living this sad sad life,
good for you.
remain that way.
but i'm no you okay.
i want to live a life of wholesomeness.
i have my friends,
my church,
my family.
who are dear to me.
just because you are willing to forgo yours (wow, you actually have them..)
dont assume that other people carry the same mentality as you.
now as i think back,
i cannot believe that i even had the thought that living a life like yours
was good and fun.
ewwww utter turnoff.
you are exaggerated,
insecure,
and unreasonable.
you detest the life out of me totally man.
but i know that because i voluntarily signed up for your fking shit,
i mus keep my word and suck it up.
seeing your face makes me feel like throwing up.
you're worse than the disgusting girl i dislike in lecture.
than the weirdo i see on the streets.
than the whole world of odd creatures.
i still do work as told not because i respect you.
it is because i respect the authority that have been considerate and reasonable.
you have them to thank man.

and your stupid assistant the shit face.
whole day only know how to talk and yak and yak.
nothing more than an empty vessel.
my friend was right in the insult man.
you are only a clashing cymbal,
that makes nothing but noise that pollute my ears and
waste precious human time.
who knows not how to make yourself useful when you see us in trouble
and in need of help.
for all i know, you could be telling on us to him behind our backs.
but wtf
i dont care.
because i know that i have done and contributed more than you in this.
i can at least say i made the effort and have come thus far.
you?
whole day only know how to eat and eat and eat during meetings.
the only way you lose your calories is by lifting your fingers
to make phone calls to me,
chasing me for something that wouldnt have needed chasing,
should you have offered a helping hand earlier.
but whatever,
not like i am dying for your help.
good riddance to bad rubbish in fact.
maybe if you were to help,
you'd just drag the whole damn process down
and in the blink of an eye,
the whole thing is over.

screw you both man.
eww no, no screw.
shit you both deep deep.

scared scared scared.

monday- programmer meeting till 1am plus
tuesday- xphy event briefing till 1am plus too
wednesday- xphy dry run briefing till 1am plus.
thursday- maundy thurs visiting till 12am plus
friday- good friday passion play
saturday- easter vigil mass till 12am
sunday- xphy dryrun whole day

God grant me strength!!!
anberlin is my friend.

talk about retro (:



i'm the one who wants to be with you

this songs is really upbeat.
something i need now.
because there are a lot of mixed emotions.
haha just wondering.
is there a
He takes me high? ;D

different. so different.
it all felt strangely different.
haha

yea i'm fine. what's a little setback.
not like i'm the only one in the world facing it.
no doubt some will progress faster than me,
but its just part of life i guess.
thanks for all your concern and prayers.
i was at first disillusioned.
and i seriously wanted to scream at that guy.
but of course i didnt.
dont know what to say now.
urgh.

nights are ironically the best and worst time to do things.
it is pin drop silent, without any
annoying brothers to irritate the
trying-to-be-hardworking me.
looking forward to the thought of being able to sleep peacefully without
being worried that an assignment is left undone.
yet it also makes me think of the nostalgic past.
haha dont know what suddenly came to me,
thoughts kept rushing through my mind,
as i recollect tiny bits of detail that i still remember,
that happened not too long ago.
and of course,
not to mention thoughts of the TP on thursday also makes me
shudder, just thinking of the tester's face.. :s
just thank God that an assignment is done,
and now with two more test for the week,
plus one resume assignment, and i am
so done!