JC aint no bed of roses.
whoo lala.. it's burning me away man.
this whole jc catastrophe!
econs is simply devastating my life,
with all the red single digits for every test.
yea yea.
it's Demoralising; Distressing; Disconcerting; Disturbing,
to know that i know nothing about economics.
i am always laughing it off when my test paper reads 3.5/25 (U).
and just yesterday, the exams timetable was issued to us.
GP and History papers are less than two weeks away!
History isn't any better, and is not consoling at all,
with SarahSoh ranting at us non stop during ALL the tutorials that
"mid years constitute 20% of your promos, so don't take it lightly, or you'll regret"
I KNOW we will regret if we don't study.
but for certain topics (like Korean War), i really know nuts about it!
and for the tutorial outline, there was really no need for her sarcasm,
because i really could not process anything into my head at that time.!
and i thought she was really unfair to aaron as well.
yes he is the history rep and should set a good example.
but is it his fault that he doesn't know how to write an ENTIRE outline because he does not thoroughly understand the topic?
i don't think so.
instead, the teacher should really reflect upon HERSELF,
and ask HERSELF why her students are like that!
could it be because her teaching methods are too advance for some students?
and for aaron and my case, we really tried our best to do,
just that we made use of her outline more than others did.
but we're all learning.
is that wrong?!
she can be a nice teacher,
but for students whom she has bad impression on,
that impression lasts a lifetime.
sad for aaron,
screw her and her obnoxious attitude man.
NAPFA is kind of officially over,
i am satisfied and thankful for the results of five items, except for one.
i don't know why.
but i just cant seem to exceed 168cm!
i'm perpetually stuck at 168!
no matter how much i try, or push myself,
or listen to long-jumpers' advice,
i am just stuck there all the time.
and 168 is a frigging D.
thats silver!
i want to achieve more.
i believe i can do it.
i just need a little more time.
just pray hard,
that i can do it.
172cm! thats all i need.
GOD send me your angels to let me fly to 172 and beyond! =))
Project work is another woe that is on my mind and cant forget.
i feel so useless as a leader.
everytime the group comes together, i don't know wad to say.
i don't know wad task to delegate.
and that is totally not the likes of a leader!
nicholas seems to be taking the lead,
and he seems to know just wad to do for everything.
for the recent group project proposal, i was like a dumb ass,
just stoning.. and my poor group had to stone along with me.
and everytime i stone,
i'll say, "let's read all the GPPs"
meena just keeps quite and peiqing too.
they must be feeling like "sian diao"..
i don't blame them.
i feel likewise too.
and nicholas would sometimes just be unable to control himself and..
just want to lead.
and he would be like "okay! so, for this this .... .... blah blah.."
and he would go on and on,
and i would be there listening, wishing i could do wad he did, or even better.
and after all that he proposed,
all i said was "oh, okay. settled?"
and all the group members would just nod their heads,
in a wad seems like nonchalant attitude.
i feel so bad,and useless!
char said that as a leader, i must stand on my own feet,
and be decisive at all times,
in order to gain their respect.
yea, something along that line.
and.
thats wad i'm not doing!
after school yesterday,
we were supposed to stay back to compile our GPPs, into the GPP draft2.
but meena left during mother tongue lesson,
and peiqing left to catch his bus.
and i was lost for words.
i just did the GPP with nicholas,
and feeling bad that i eliminated some of his ideas,
i added some of peiqing, meena and mine.
and that is wad i call GROUP project proposal.
shit me as a leader, seriously.
and i would like to apologise to team CJ160.
didnt go to school today.
had a running runny nose.
but i was feeling much better,
compared to yesterday.
yesterday could hardly stand luhh.
ohwell.
today was kinda slack.
but i completed all my GP comprehensions! yayayay!
the nose is still running though..
wad to do.
tmr is 'black boards, white walls'
hopefully nicholas can make it,
don't disappoint her. x)
and don't pangseh me too!
okay, enough of ranting for a long long time.
shall go off to complete GP essay!
yes,
torments of JC life,
where you are swallowed up with homework, assignments and tutorials.
yay! don't you just love it.