looking at people around me,
i realise i'm not alone in having my fair share of woes and troubles.
in fact,
there are people out there who are in plights worse off than mine,
and i am in no position to procrastinate about doing anything,
and should instead do it with a postive attitude.
there are people around me who are lonely,
have no one to talk to,
and are aimless in life.
sounds like me,
but at least i know that i musn't let this life go to waste.
i've decided to not think so much about this nonsense.
i've done badly for midyr exams,
nothing to be happy about,
nothing to say,
as many people did far worse than me,
and i should be grateful for what i have,
and study harder should i want better results at year end.
see.
it's all about the attitude.
don't say things like "i'm so stupid for scoring so badly"
but rather,
take the leap of faith by saying "i WILL work harder"

but seriously,
looking at my grades now.
i laugh.
i cry.
i dread.
i think:
what about the O lvl times when i panicked so much,
and yes,
the times when i went to morning mass EVERYDAY
and read the student prayer issued by Fr Simon Pereira before every single paper.
O level meant so much to me,
and i did everything to just do well for that General Certificate Examinations.
and now in jc,
screw the midyear.
ha,
thats what everyone thinks!
where mere passes and subpasses are the highly yearned grade.
and i even talk during sunday mass now!
oops!
i look at the people around me,
and it makes me reflect (positively):
if aggie can listen attentively during lectures, why cant i?
if my first intake friends can do and get their stuff right, why cant i?
if my second intake friends catch up on syllabus and even pass every subject, why cant i?
if i could perform the way i did just 8months ago for the Ordinary level, why cant i now?
think about it.

and just like today's chinese listening compre,
the question on the guy with the small car accident while going on a picnic with his friend,
with the moral of the story being:
always look at things from a positive perspective.
i think it's so true,
in every point of life.
well..
one life, live it.