just wanna say that yesterday was a teary but blissful dinner i had.
nothing beats that really, thanks (:

the exams are drawing so near,
and for me i simply
dont really feel the pressure.
i feel the obligation to "study cos i need to"
but not the drive to score well.
the run this morning finally jolted me,
to realize that i must procrastinate no more!
revisited my studying tactics and i am proud to say
that its headed somewhere now.

though assignments are over,
i feel the pressure to complete studying and cramming
everything into my brain which i realize,
isnt that big after all these years
hmm..
no wasting away my life, youth and academia!
gpa important, everything else can wait.
is this the mentality that i should maintain?
at least for now right.
this should be the mindset of every tertiary student.

the creepy lift lobby that i shiver and loathe walking pass
every single time, even during the day.
its just part and parcel of life (in school)
it's me who has to change. to be brave enough
to walk through and overcome my fears.
or simply go for alternatives.
i should not be so dependent on company all the time right?
its all about changing myself in this. and not anyone else.

this seems to be the only way which you can read through
my thoughts almost always these days right.
everytime we meet, its either random nonsense
or just silence.
but i am getting used to it.
hopefully things will be different two weeks from now!
i cant wait!