thursday's bio practical was fine. but quite sad cos PLANTS came out, and i cAn't do PLANTS for nuts.
but i guess i wrote lots of stuff. vomitted evrything i knew.
i dare say i'm like the most kiasu candidate in the lab.
i drew, scribbled, wrote on the practical exam paper until my paper looked crumpled.
u know..
those type of paper which look as if lots of stuff has been written on it,
ahah.
a sense of satisfaction. =D

i found a new LOVE.
Kim Jung Hoon. 김정훈
yay!!
he's so HOT.
and..
if you're a guy,
i tell u.
you're definitely turn gay.
so please..
go and watch goong.
it's on channel U.
7.00pm weeknights.
OR
youtube.
just watch alright.
rowena lee's reccommendations are NEVER wrong.
=))
oh ya,
one last thing,

KIM JUNG HOON IS HOT!!
I LOVE HIM TO BITS!

Officially graduated from that school last friday.
i've never been happier.
took pictures with friends whom i assume i'll miss.
haha
and i didn't cry!
i dunno why.
many people cried.
but not me!

yesterday watched World Trade Center with clara wong.
and was supposed to study after that.
but was totally unproductive.
Hence i decided to stay at home today to study and make up for losses.

Olevels is a mere 2week away issue.
and i'm taking it lightly.
oOps.
this thurs is science practical.
i love QA.
but i hate bio.
with all the plant and tomato nonsense.
then this friday will be having consultation with all the teachers.

my dream came true!!
watched forbidden city yesterday. was super nice!
credits to lijun.
i'm still thinking about the whole musical even up till now.
it was fantastic!
not only was it FORBIDDEN CITY, it was the premier!
whoa, how cool is that!
after that went to eat dinner with eli aggie tang sam.
was boring, ate macs. *pukes
went home.
was literally freaked out when i thought about alst night.
thanks to the 4 of you, i'm home safely.
and not forgetting eli's mum too.

yesterday that maid of mine went home!
yay!
yet another dream come true.
it was a long and frightening story, but all is well now.
i love maidless-ness.
september holidays was a wreck.
i didn't make full use of the holidays to really study.
but just randomly studying here and there.

now everyone's asking whether to go prom.
it's at Copthorne Kings Hotel.
err.
last year they had it at Rasa Sentosa,
and now>??!
stupid shit.
and moreover, not only do we have pay for the fee,
we also have to pay for gown, hair, make up, shoes, etc etc.
wow, wad a bomb.
and moreover, what's the point of going,
if i'm not with the people i want to be with,
force won't brng happiness.
right?
i don't want to force myself to go just cos everyone's going.
that's so.. fake?
i think i probably won't enjoy myself.
and i'll also feel bad putting up with the 4e ppl.
they're really nice ppl.
but i somehow don't want to treat them as substitutes.
the problem lies with me. it's not them.
i've got this big screwed up problem since last year, july.
everyone has gotten over it except me.
sometimes i can't stand myself for being like that.
but i can't help it.
when i see the people i miss,
all the bad feelings rush back.
ai ya!
stop it.

today had career seminar.
temasek, singapore ploy lecturers came.
Br Paul, principal from cjc came too.
all of them seemed eager for us to come to their respective institutes.
however before they began their talks,
many, not all, congratulated us for being the only school that was commended by PM Lee during the national day rally.
this really made me have second thoughts.
occasionally i wonder to myself, if chij sjc was not commended on national tv during the rally,
would those lecturers still be eager for us to go to their institutes?
had PM lee not spoken about sjc during the rally, would sjc be as "well-known" and "prestigious" as we are now, with all the polys in singapore coming and trying to attract sjc girls to their various institutes like how a magnet attract paper clips.

anyway.

prelims just over.
i'm crossing my fingers to do well.
i really hope to get to cjc.
science stream is 12.
i'm sceptical actually,
cos i was quite slack.

good news, i've got an a2 for cca.
actually thought i would get b3 or something,
considering my slackness during sec4.
must thank God, now with this a2,
i'll be able to minus 2pts frm my L1R5 aggregate!
plus another 2pts from affiliation,
let's see..
i'll need >16 to get to cj.
ok, much easier. =D
actually i kind of planned my path already.
ok summary at a glance->
compulsory subjects in jc: general paper and mother tongue
H1- History
H2- Chemistry
H2- Economics
H2- Mathematics
i hope this is a sensible combination and
i really pray hard that i don't regret this combi.

tuition has also helped tremendously.
i really sense my amath improving,
i hope the results can tell all.
yes, hoping that i can get 1 for both maths.
haha.

this thursday is teacher's day celebrations.
i cant wait to visit huang laoshi.
i miss her so very much.
the only thing i'm hesitant about.
my chinese o level results.
man.
i don't know how to face her.
i feel that i've disappointed her so very much.
and my primary school friends.
cedar's having their prelims today.
so sad, the celebrations are amid the exams.

I'll be there for you
these five words I swear to you
When you breathe
I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

confirmation is finally over!
yay, after 4yrs of class,
i finally graduated! i'm so happy!
18th june 2006, in white, at nativity church.
ahh, the moment which i savoured.
=)

before that had tripartite camp.
was okay.
quite fun.
but tired after it.
wasn't as spiritual as i thought it would be.
and.,
i thought jb camp was more fun.
=)

on 27th june, tues.
it was Passing Out Parade 2006.
finally,
it was my turn to be
kawalan kehormatan.
it was splendid.
though it was small,
it was still significant for me.
jac and rachel are confirm becoming CI.
but i'm really unsure.

on the same day was also tang's birthday.
went swensen's to celebrate.
was fun, crap lots.
ate good food,
but burnt my pocket.
=)

had english oral on thurs.
i thought it was just a practice.
but it was actually english prelims!
haha, i was totally in the dark.
but anyway,
i can safely i did okay.
=)

next tues will be chinese oral.
man,
i think i'm gonna watch mandarin news,
read mandarin newspaper,
and speak mandarin.

zai jian!

new skin. thought of changing.
think this is quite cool.
(:
holidays have been okay.
been doing all the assignments.
can sleep late, wake up late.
yay.
but suffering from bad throat.
cough and cough.
going tripartite camp next week.
hope it'll be fun.
and hope i'll recover.

got back midyr results.
ok.
i'm not happy.
now the next headache is CHINESE Os!!!
i'm so anxious!
really really really hope to get A1.
i really really pray hard that i get it.
den i'll go back to primary school
and make my chinese teacher proud!
hah!

13-16 june is tripartite camp.
i'm most prob going.
but if gerald doesn't go,
den i'll probably give it a miss.
18 june is confirmation!
WOOHOO!
finally.
after 4YEARS!!!!!!
WOW.
CANT believe this is gonna be over soon.
quite gonna miss sunday classes.
but i ain't gonna miss that stupid person.
another headache.
havent gotten myself a confirmation name!
ahh!

this june hols will probably be quite a balance.
holidays and homework that is.
i promise myself to do revision everyday during the month of june.
lol as if i'd really do it.

i've plan my post chinese os programme.
and top on the list is
poseidon at omni theatre!
yay.
ok, so far i havent asked anyone abt it.
gonna do so aft Os.

going to pass out when school reopens.
i heard the cca dept plans to make the passing out parade small scale!
man!
why must it be during my year!
i want a prim and proper POP.
how can it be so small scale!
damn!
not being able to wear number one uniform is bad enough,
now they actually want to shrink POP to such a puny event,
WAD IS THIS!
i want to complain!!!!!

heard this on radio,
kinda miss it :)

here i go
scream my lungs out
and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go
there's just no one
who gets me like you do
you are my only
my only one.

so many things happened.
first and foremost.
pap won aljunied!
damn,
gotta see cynthia phua for the next 5yrs of meet-the-ppl sessions.
b o r i n g
i want sylviaLIM!
hai. this is God's will i guess.
nvm, by next election, i'll be able to vote (21yrs old!!!)
and WP, i'm behind u always. =D

Wednesday was the last exam day.
paper was only an hour,
afterwhich.
went ps to watch Mission Impossible III.
we watched the 11am show,
there were less than 10 ppl in the cinema.
ha.
the show was good.
and i agree with rachel lim.
Maggie Q is really sexy.
it's worth watching.
i wanna watch poseidon too!
BAdly!
actually i wanted to watch da vinci code,
but my dad strictly said NO.
saying how hollywood make millions of dollars by insulting our faith (in the book they said that Jesus married mary magdalene, etc..)
at first i thought my dad was crazy.
but later on it seemed quite true that the catholic faith was BADLY MISUNDERSTOOD by danBROWN's book.
i've had my fair share of bad experiences.
people coming to me aft reading the bk and asking me whether did Jesus really marry mary magdalene and had a child in france.
i mean.
please.
how is it possible to haf a child with maryMagdalene if Jesus died on the cross?
it is crystal clearly stated in the Bible.
i've read the book,
but it was totally fictional from my point of view.
it seem like some adventure story if you ask me.
and i read it just for the thrill.
in fact danBROWN's book clearly stated that this book is fictional.
but the funny thing is,
he also claimed that his story was based on historical events.
isn't this contradiction?
blah.
danBROWN.
and my dad was so against me watching the movie,
that he told me he'd rather me buy the pirated vcd of that show
than spend my money on the movie.
heard that he actually wrote to petitionsonline.com
to ban da vinci code from being screened in s'pore.
haha.
that's my dad.

well..
exams are over too.
made a grave mistake this midyr.
i totally didn't take it seriously.
very slack.
on thurs got back 2 subjects.
ss and eng.
for ss, i'm grateful that i passed.
and i promise NEVER to spot questions again, ever.
wow, amazing that i passed. hee.
for english, i'm disappointed in myself.
was a total letdown.
i'm going to start reading, and i'm gonna make it a habit.

chinese Os is coming.
i'm scared.
cos i dunno how to study for it.
but i'll just do wad i can.
hai!!

exams are almost over.
i have only amaths and science paper1 left.
i feel like i havent accomplished much this SA1.
Probably it's because there's still prelims..
then O levels.

well, the worst day during this whole exam period was on wednesday.
yes.
i had bio and history paper.
2 mind boggling subjects.
so much memorising to do!
so little time!
i spent the whole tuesday night, till 2am
studying all the bio and not a single shit of history.
bio was bad.
the first question was: Define Hormones.
and i was like.. shit!
i learnt the function of an adrenal medulla
and they chose to ask me the basic of the basics!
really felt like slapping myself.
bio ended at 930.
history was coming up at 12.

after bio went cp to meet huimin for breakfast cum study history.
great. i was finally able to open the history textbook.
yes. my history SA1, i had only 1hr 30mins to study for it at cp before i go back to school to sit for the exam.
really didn't know if i could cramp all the info into my brain.
espcially since i chose to do cold war, something which has not been tested before.
huimin studied war in pacific.
haha quite interesting though.
all the gorbachev roosevelt and harry truman
started floating in my mind.
nice!
i love history!
and UN too!
success and failures!
hehh.
i'm a history freak.

anyway.
thanks to huimin and her way of teaching,
i managed to squeeze all the impt necesary facts into my brain and at 1130,
we left cp.

the exam went quite smoothly i must say.
i started off with essay first.
i wanted to regurgitate all that i studied.
then focus my mind on source base ques.
this was quite a good strategy u know.

haha

tuesday was chemistry.
not that bad.

thurs was emath p2.
nightmare!
goodness gracious.
never knew cherry lim could set such high standard paper.
lol.

today, friday.. chinese.
i totally didn't prepare anything for chinese.
on thurs night,
i followed my parents to catch a glimpse of Workers' party last rally at AngMoKio.
but it was so ultra crowded,
we made a detour and went home.
quite a wasted trip.
not only did it waste my time,
i could have used the time to do some chinese revision.
anwyay.
on the way back,
my dad kind of gave me a mini "rally" in the car.
he was telling me how he really felt about PAP and WP.
and i must say..
looks can be deceiving.

fridy was npcc day.
we had some sort of a parade thing.
then mrs chan read mr charles chong's msg.
mr chong is such a poor thing.
not only have to prepare for the general elections at his pasir ris-punggol grc,
still have to get involved in npcc celebrations.
i pity his situaion.
must be so stressful.
wore the full uni for the first paper,
then later we changed.

after school went cp to get wi's present.
hope he likes it!
went uncle for tuition.
not very productive.
did only one exam paper.
then left.

now as i'm typing this,
i feel so tired.
but satisfied as well.
cos i havent written such a long post in years.
well.
although i know no one will bother reading.
it really feels great to be able to type wad u really feel about something
or someone..
haha.

mid year is here now.
but it's not haunting me.
in fact, i'm taking it lightly.
a step at a time.
my progress is really slow.

the hottest topic in town!!
General Election 2006!
:D
yay,
i support WP.
haha. opposition.
asked many people.
and they told me their parents are:
father vote PAP
mother vote opposition.
or vice versa.
neutral.

hai.
thinking of her
the happy times where we used to crap a lot.
really miss those times.
why is she treating me like that now?
it's not that i wanted all this to happen.

ok relax.
i'm straight.
i'm talking about a friend.
a dear friend of mine whoim i think i've lost.

my music story ends here for now. i'm quite sad. but i'll resume it after o levels. =)

CCA's coming to an end.
all of a sudden.
i feel as if so many things were left unfinished.
i'm not about prepared to just stop everything now on 7th april.
i wonder wad fridays will be like.
no training.
ever again.
will kinda miss it.
the fact that i've been doing the same thing
for 4 years non stop.
i guess it's a matter of time that
i have to stop.

time really flies like a butterfly.
O level's coming in 7months.
and i barely started on anything.

HA

all that crap about aiming less than 10 for Os.
i'm really giving that aim a miss i guess.
CJC.
if i can.
SAJC.
if i wish.
RJC.
if i die.

LOL.

wad rubbish.

it's been quite sometime since i last updated. nothing to update about. my life described in a four letter word, SIAN. haha. wad were you thinking. but recently, something happened that changed my life quite some bit.

Crossroads

SYD Youth Rally!!!

it was an awesome night. really. the spirit was there. truely. though i was filming like, all the time, i got some what influenced by the spirit. =D it was nice. this is probably the other best spiritual encounter after jb camp.

i was supposed to help in logistics initially. but due to my absence to numerous rally practices, clare put me in media, camera crew. and trust me, it was an experience of a lifetime. i was told to handle the portable video cam, and my first reaction (in my heart) was a four letter word (again), shit. cos i knew i had shaky hands. and i wasn't going to do a good job. but ended up, it was quite ok. 2 ics for media, leandro and ryan. 2 other camera people from nativity, leonard and vanessa. nice people there. :) ha. i was supposed to carry a transmitter, a walkie talkie, a head set, and a video cam everywhere i went. not bad eh.

during the actual shoot, i seriously panicked. my hand shook more than during rehearsal times. ahh. i was so angry with myself. and i kept forgetting to press the 'record' button. shucks! well, the most terrifying momnet was, i mus say, during the procession of the blessed sacrament. i was supposed to film the procession and walk backwards simultaneously. oh oh. wad if i trip over some wires and malu myself in front of everyone?? leandro was like "you won't fall, trust me, you won't". and i was like "how you know? wad if i screw things up?" and on and on. so as i was filming the procession, he pull me all the way till up the stage. and everything went smoothly. PRAISE GOD. :)

after that, was the final praise n worship. the atmosphere was so HIGH. everyone had their hands in the air, singing shouting and having fun. and me.. i was filming, hand ache, shoulder ache, arm ache. but seeing everyone in the audi praising God, i totally forgot the pain. :) then finally at the last stage when i could put down the cam, i ran all the way to the 5th row, where i could see the screen, and did wad i wanted to for the past hour: sing and clap my hands.

youth rally has exposed me to many new things, gadgets and gizmos, and people. i think i'm beginning to like filming. =D though it's tiring (totally!). i think it was worth every bit. though it's complicated, i kinda got the hang of it. so ya. and the best part was, i got to know a couple of media savvy people, and it's really good.

now, my right hand is suffering from post "holding the camera for 4 hours straight" syndrome.