A levels are so over.
well its been over since 14th,
and i'd like to say i spent the free time rather competently?
hahah call me NO-LFE,
but i was working
and earning income.
shopped, ate, watched movies, chilled out,
apply for driving..
i did nearly everything i hoped to.
fall short of only earning enough money to sustain my spending.
so many things to buy!
recently laid eyes on the 4th gen ipod nano,
which i'm considering getting.
with the increase in disposable income with time,
i dont see why i cant!
ahahahh work hard rowena!

just two days ago,
i was enthusiastic about prom.
but now, it just feels weird.
for obvious reasons.

gotta say big thankyou to eliz and rachel for taking time out to help me.
with everything.
i'll just pray that tomorrow ends up well.
and that i do not behave like a self-centred and immature friend.

what'll i do without these darlings! <3 <3 haha :D

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken,probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken.you'll fight with your best friend.

You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures,laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Find a guy/girl who calls you beautiful instead of hot; who calls you back when you hang up on him; who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.Wait for the guy/girl who kisses your forehead; who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats; who holds your hand in front of his friends. Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he/she cares about you and how lucky he/she is to have you.


Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says,
"..that's him/her."

study study study.
the most sian holiday so far.
everyday is a go-back-to-school day.
and when in school, it's a peridiocally-stoning time.
did mostly maths.
chem is progressing slowly.
i'm really determined to do well for pure maths paper,
and make up for the loss marks in stupid STATS paper.

christi is sick.
i wanna visit her, but she insists i spend my time studying.
i miss studying with her!

feasting on chocolates now.
it's a random mood of mine.
till then,
it's exactly one week to the end of prelims.
=)

we played our hearts out,
made some blunders here and there.
but after 6 weeks, we emerged victorious!
yeaaa T34.
you guys are the best.
andre ezra nicholas chengyou nicole aggie.
best teammates who fought and practiced hard,
especially the guys,
with the ultimate goal of that gold medal.
now we have it!

next thing to look forward to: teachers' match.
let's trash them as well ;)
after that, nothing much to look forward to anymore.
study hard for prelim friends!
let's perform as well for studies as we did for the matches?
(:

i'm officially in the econs tuition in bishan.
the teacher's really good.
hopefully i'm headed towards churning some positive results?
hmmm.

today was supposed to be study-chem-and-econs day.
but my mind just had to wander off again.
couldnt sit still.
headed to bugis to get the books for grade5.
i'm all set to take the next exam now that i passed grade4,
by the grace of God.
hahaha.
walked all the way to marina square to get my pen refills,
only to find out that christi was in suntec.
but i couldnt meet her,
had to be home for dinner.
someone's birthday's coming!!
=)

Nightstudy shall continue till kingdom come.
i'm gonna start on history essays later.
now for the olympics!

Happy birthday Singapore!
independent for 43 years and going strong.
you didnt want to part from Malaysia first as you felt that you would be more competent if you had her,
but now you're alone, strong and better than ever.
ahh what an inspiration!
hahaha.

yesterday's class outing to sentosa after national day celebration was a blast.
we played volleyball, captain's ball and frisbee!
everyone enjoyed everyone's company.
attendance was 17, the most well-responded one so far!
really looking forward to another one probably after A's?
then at night, rachel rang me up
and we ended up having selegie tau huey and chatting.
it was really good talking to that old friend again.
i'm gonna give her econs tuition a try!
yes.. it's that densely cj-populated tuition centre at bishan,
which seems really effective.
so i was just thinking, why not?

it's been a monotonous national day.
did filing in the morning since there's no piano today.
i re-filed ALL my notes for all the five subjects.
feeling satisfied.
but it's only the beginning.

pass few days have been pretty okay for me.
did the usual morning runs and had lessons as per normal.
went for night study the past two nights which i must say,
productive! (as compared to staying home and lying on the couch watching soapy channel8 dramas)
Night study was motivating, with aggie and eliz by my side.
ahahah, plus a bonus which i had on thursday night.
=)
progress in my studies still going slow, but i will try my best to pick up pace.

and i'm officially the clumsiest person this moth yeaaa.
i've been falling and injuring myself for the past month incessantly.
scraped my knee on tuesday while balling,
and yesterday at sentosa,i got hit on the head by the frisbee twice.
the bruise on the left knee doesnt seem to want to subside.
i've got ugly legs now man.
not to mention a dented forehead too.

once again, happy birthday spore.

the friend who's always smiling, and giving me advise, which i think are not bad. she's just acting scared. yes daiwenny's good friend athenanana
the friend who's always hungry during break. sometimes eat bread, sometimes eat japanese food. she likes to kope food too: )

school reopen.
but it wasnt a nice way how i started the term.
ahhh.
i really really regret it now.
i never should have gone overboard.
i really regret it like crazy!
i'm sorry.
i've been such a disappointment.
i promise it will never happen again.
over my dead body will i touch it.

fail fail fail midyears.
that's what they all say man.
what's new anyway.

i miss baking.
chocolate chip muffins anyone?
: D

what we all foresaw,
it's coming.
subtly
and
quietly.
it creeps behind your back,
you know not what to expect.
would it be a pleasant surprise?
would it be a frightening nightmare?
we all wonder?
suspense is what we hang on to.
something we all detest,
but occasionally,
inevitably.
ohwell.
life's a mystery.
really really.

Jer 17:5-10

Thus says the LORD:
Cursed is the man who trusts in human beings,
who seeks his strength in flesh,
whose heart turns away from the LORD.
He is like a barren bush in the desert
that enjoys no change of season,
But stands in a lava waste,
a salt and empty earth.
Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD,
whose hope is the LORD.
He is like a tree planted beside the waters
that stretches out its roots to the stream:
It fears not the heat when it comes,
its leaves stay green;
In the year of drought it shows no distress,
but still bears fruit.
More tortuous than all else is the human heart,
beyond remedy; who can understand it?
I, the LORD, alone probe the mind
and test the heart,
To reward everyone according to his ways,
according to the merit of his deeds.

It's not easy becauses we all have our crosses to bear.
Some times our crosses are heavier than others,
some times, lighter.
There are moments when we just want to shut ourselves away,
but let's not.
We can make it work out.
just a little faith will do the trick.
I believe in you.

School's not easy,
assignments after assignments.
I'm doing what I should,
but not the extra (revision, exercises).
No time no time,
that's what they all say.

I miss you.

Here we are at the crossroads once again.

nice song. but here, i'm talking about reality.
reality can be sweet, can be bitter.
but most of the time, bitter.
for the past few weeks,
i've been typing nothing but history tutorial outlines after outlines.
endless amount of work to do.
i'm getting the hang of study study study every single day.
but.
it seems like all this studying isnt reaping meany rewards.
organic chem test was a disaster in my opinion.
and so was economics.
syllabus for maths are getting more complex,
plus having mr thomas ho for lecturer isnt the BEST thing for us.
Mr rajoo just had to pose a challenge for himself and Sarah soh,
to compete and see whose class performs better for h1 hist common test.
and now? it's a whole series of test coming up,
to drill and train us in essay content and writing skills.
somany things, so little time.
Parent teacher meeting = wake up call.
espcially the part where Bro Paul made us seem so indebted to our parents.
i felt the need to realise get the As.
i'd like to think i can.

I believe you can too.