sometimes i think i am perfect. the fact is. i am not. i know that. the ego inside me got the better of me. i think i can do a better job than other people. but while i can do a good job. i do not let others show their true potential. thus i feel that i am the only perfect one. people hardly come up to me and say. hey you. can you please buzz off and stop pushing your weight around. you really piss me off and i don't need you right here right now. if fact. no one ever does that. it will and it is bound to hurt you. it will cut deep into your heart. especially if it is coming from a friend of yours whom you have thought of as a good friend. no one would dare to be so blunt in their tone. yet we know that they mean well. they just want the best for us. and that is for me to stop my bad bad habit. bossing around. i need a lecture on this big time. when you want to change. your pride ego self-esteem start to roll in. inevitably that is. i don't want to be who i am presently. i feel that i do not live my life to the fullest. maximising my fullest utmost potential. maybe i don't have potential. who is to ssay that anyway. not even me. honestly. it is true. your personality is your barrier to maximising your fullest potential. wad you are can sometimes stop or prevent you from letting you do what you want. once again inevitable right. so stop being what you actually are and work towards being a BETTER person. don't live by your present personality. work to a better goal. future. life.

another two weeks will be exams.
another another two weeks will be the end of exams!
lol.
-study
-mug
HARD.

ahaha.. i'm so happy!!! we got CHAMPION for HORIZON CHALLENGE!!! HAHAHA. i just wanna say. I'M HAPPY.

once upon a time..
there was this girl
who could never really enjoy her life..

today is probably my last day of fun until the exams are over.
i guess it was rather fun?
(:

we went sentosa siloso beach.
had tanning session.
i'm a Lobster now.
and jacqueline cant show off her tan anymore.
cos i'm tanner than her.
=p
quite lame,
we were playing zong ji mi ma.
and laodie and aggie kept on getting the number.
got quite boring becos we ran out of questions for them.
we were also supposed to have picnic!
but laodie had to go make her ic
so we left early.
nevermind.
we're gonna bring all the food to school tomorrow
to continue with our picnic.
yay!!

after sentosa
sam went for tuition
the rest of us went to heeren
shopped..
for nothing.
then i went home.

went for tcc meeting.
it's settled about having the dunking machine.
it's coming this saturday.
and all tcc members are supposed to go up there.
whoa.

just reached home and
i managed to complete routine order.
tmr sec1s are gonna do 2hr 30mins footdrill.
sorry.
i've gotta do wad i've gotta do.
i know you ppl hate rowena ma'am.
i hate her too!
-craps

i'm rushing my zuo ye now!
mann.

If I could ever turn back time
I'd make sure my life is one that's fulfilling and
perfeCt.
I've wasted so much time already.
doing the wrong things at the wrong time.
letting my mind wonder into some fairytale wonderland,
where everything is just an illusion
that I have in my heart.

god
lead me back to the right path
people have come to me
tell me all sorts of things.
sometimes directly using their words
to slap me right in the face.
It's time to wake up.
face the truth.

stop dreaming,
start doing.

my house stinks right now!!!
sewage pipe just burst!
some one save me!!!

dis sat is games day at nvss.
today went to reckie their place.
the ppl are crappy i must say!
esp the HAWK and the COCK

amazing race is gonna be a BLAST.
i assure.

ATC was great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

daY_onE
reached Ubin at around 2plus. was lunch time and we got to know our groupmates from the other schools. interesting!
after lunch was tent-pitching. i had a splinter in my small finger and i went to the sickbay. so i did not get to pitch a single tent on my own:(
soon was dinner, during which could get to know my groupmates better. i'm SO happie that the guys are neither sissies, nor selfish ppl. yes! everyone shared all the rations(:
after dinner had pioneering. we tied a struture that was supposed to be a mess-tin/stove hanger. quite creative there.
after which had ice-breaker game. by then, eveyone was sweating. the game was smth like everyone standing on a bench and organising themselves according to height/birthdays..etc. fun!
had debrief session with our group CI, kimpeck sir. he was lenient. very nice too. told us ghost stories abt bahru campsite. thank goodness we're in noordin campsite. phew.

daY_twO
had morning pt. ran from noordin to bahru and back to noordin. it was a good jog i must say. i sweat it all out.
after breakfast was orienteering. kimpeck sir and mrchia were our instructors in charge. we sat off slowly to our first checkpoint.. guess we were somewhat too slow. =p
there were 7 checkpoints. and we came in 2nd out of 3 groups. quite an achievement, considering we spent a huge amt of time on a game which i shant go on to elaborate.
lunchtime was heaven. everyone was starving after the orienteering. i cooked 2 packets of maggie mee for myself and i could not finish, oOps. no one could help me to eat.
after lunch was supposedly kayaking. but because of the bad weather, we had to wait in the boatshed. in the end, we never got to kayak because the weather was so unpredictable:(
we soon went back to the usual assembly area where we got ready out campfire stuff. shenglong was the HAWK. haha. and we had a good time dressing him up.
after dinner, was CAMPFIRE!!!!! fun! cos there were many cheers and songs. it was high!!!
den it rained! oh mann!!!
but that did not dampen our spirits. we went to the assembly area and continued cheering. this time, everyone's face was RED from cheering. LOL
after cheering, we had stand-by-tentage. we were given 8mins to get our stuffs ready.
had a real bad sleep that night because i was sleeping at the end of the tent, and mosquitoes were feasting on my blood. endure for 1hour. den finally, when i could endure no more, i went to sickbay AGAIN to apply lotion. man was it soothing!!!
we were supposed to report for sentry duty at 3am, ending at 4am. but we were 10mins late and had to do 1 1/2 hour of sentry duty instead.

daY_thrEe
final day. we were given a privilege that was too hard to resist. no PT!!! oh yayyy!!!
ate breakfast at 630am. everyone was still half asleep and we all had only dry rations.
after breakfast was area-cleaning. my group was in for the keeping of the tents. quite a difficult task because teh sheets were dirty, full of grass and we had to clean them off.
last half hour of camp, we got scolded by raymond sir. for no sense of urgency, etc..
then.. was prize presentation, and guess what! my group, HAWK, got the best group award. we were SHOCKED alright. yay! happie too! everyone, including ourselves were puzzled at how we clinched the top prize. the two individual bset campers came form nvss.
from the campsite to the jetty, camp commandant wanted us to have non-stop continuous cheers and songs. and we DID IT!!!
when we finally reached jetty, everyone was panting. real hard!

coNcluSioN_
i love this year atc! the ppl in my group have also changed my attitude towards atc. the ppl have really made a huge difference in the 3days, which i thought was to be horrific, and terrifying.

after camp, i went back to our church. they were having lay apostolate telematch!
i wanted to join in. so i just slotted myself into sam's group. haha. we ended up in polar's group! yea. the 3 of us UNITE!
games were fun. samuel and nathaniel were our facils. cOoL_

wad an eventful weekend. and guess what.
i have not done a single peice of homework.
-thank you-

tomorrow is nightmare day!
going for ATC.
adventure training camp.
i hate it!!!
but for the sake of ATC badge
i have to do it.

god bless me

haha. i'm in love with oldies nowadays. especially chicago(:
LOL.
today had fun. went sakae after school with laodie sam rachel eliz. damn fun. but there was a price to pay.

we ate and ate and ate. it was like a feast, smth like the dining table in the harry potter show, table filled with plates and plates of food. haha. den we played the guess number game. and i kana twice. the penalty was eating one bowl of soba noodles. so i had to eat 2bowls of soba noodles. man! it was bad. rachel was mean!!
later sang birthday song for laodie, we celebrated an early birthday for her. and had a good time smashing her face with cake. XD
after all the commotion, i had a bad bad stomachache.
but i enjoyed myself big time today!
HAPPIE BIRTHDAY BRENDA!!!!!

well, so many things happened. i failed my chem. seriously thinking of dropping pure chem and change to scienceCHEM and scienceBIO and drop physics completely. anyway im also not intending to do anything associated with science when i grow up.
but if i change my subject combi again, it'll bring so much trouble to so many people, teachers, vp, principal. but anyway, sjc teachers always busy themselves with student affairs, so i guess another such case will probably make no diff((:
i need wisdom!!
wad should i do???
advices..?? anyone..?

today was such a stressful and hectic day! thankGOD the day is over.

well, yesterday night, i found out that i had bio and phy tests the next day.
and i had yet to prepare my np uniform.
and the parade commander thing.
big headache i had.

today..
-had bio test in the morning before recess. made a whole truckload of mistakes. as always!
-after recess had physics test which was super uper difficult. think i'll FAil
-aft the test, i rushed to do a set of hist notes for msYeo's lesson. mr chang saw me doin something which wasn't physics. threw his marker at me. =p
-last period was english, had some mini debate. i practiced the np pledge like siao.
-straight aft school, went to change and practiced my steps at the rostrum.
-the parade began, it was a fast one. din make any mistake. ((: the pledge was a success! ahh..
-but mr chia told me that there was supposed to be flag-raising, it wasn't in the list..
-aft parade HO came and revised rifle drills with us. chieYing took over my sec1s. rifle drill was fulfilling. simply love it!
-after training had debrief with sec1s. funny. and now i know they acn really keep a secret(:

havent experienced such stress since UG camp. wow!

mann! ATC is this coming friday, 19thAugust. i hate atc, i'm terrified, I AM SCARED, thank goodness jac is in my group. lovemybestsquadmate!!!

samantha's coming back tomorrow. kinda miss her((:

yesterday was a bore.
stayed at home the whole day.
can you believe it???????

well.. my sis and bro and i made brownies cos we were simply dying of boredom.
was quite cool.. lol.. but the top part was chao da. anw, who cares..
today im gonna stay home and brainstorm on the pad thing.
think think!!
how can i make a waterproof yet biodegradable and flushable pad?
think think!!

jac just came over to discuss the maths project.
but we were laughing and crapping. and she was all out for the white choc cookies. that pig. anyway, we worked on the pad thing. and we successfully did a pad. yeah.. lol.
she just went home.
alrite, shan't going on blabbering.
ciao~