Designed a report,
wholeheartedly.
I was really satisfied with the outcome yea.
Handed it up to be vetted.
"the column is not aligned"
"that part is not bolded"
"why is this heading not in upper case"
"invoice header should be right aligned"
The remarks go on and on.
And i was immediately reminded
of jc days.
back when mr. t would make us writ an essay during double gp periods.
i chose some essay pertaining to third world countries vs first.
wrote an essay that i was pleased with,
only to have it pinpointed and criticised by him.
planting big red crosses on my once clean script.
one word goes through my mind:
SIAN.

this feeling is coming back all over again.
but they say it's a parcel of working life.
i accept it.
and i will learn.
(:

hahaha gosh.
i think i'm the only one who cant wait for A's results to be released.
eh but i'm not weird...

it's confirmed,
ben said results coming out on march 6.
finally the wait is about to end,
and i thought it through already.
if i can get into uni, good.
if i cannot get into uni, good also.
our lives are already set,
just waiting for us to live it.
i shall accept everything in my stride
and receive the results with an open mind and heart.

i love candid now.
i realised i have lots of candid pictures,
of almost everyone.
AND yes i mean everyone.
HAHAH am itching to post some really nice funny ones.
wouldn't it be nice?
(:


aggie! if you rmb this, you sent this to me when i was really down. really realy down. haha thanks buddy!

today was a gratifying day, though there were still some setbacks early in the morning which i shall not mention, so as not to dampen my uplifted mood.

went for morning mass which was quite sweet, cos i got to see kiddos perform their drama during homily. yes, this is one of the rare moments that i actually do not dislike kids. haha.

met marcus and gareth at 401 to discuss some stuff about publicity, and i'm really glad to say we're actually done 7788! hahahaha, what an efficient team we make ho ho ho! nyc 2009 ftw! (: it's times like these that i think serving God can be fun?

gotta admit i'm in the "okay-you-should-start-learning-to-be-matured" mode now, like finally. borrowed 3 books. For One More Day by Mitch ALbom; The Alchemist and Veronika Decides To Die by Paulo Coelho. All are reflective and life-embracing novels. yay! rowena can hopefully start to grow up after attempting this philosophical path, HAHAHA.

After lectors' meeting, i went to trudy's house to discuss the spiritual imput for next week's meeting. i really wasnt expecting anything cos trudy's usually the more enthu one about planning and i do the eye power (and ear). and she was sick today! :( but to my surprise, i think it went quite well, and was decided that the theme for the imput be openness. Openness to God's word, grace and will, and also the leadership that we're under. i'm happy!

so many things to do, so little time. yet to apply for PDL. cant waaaaaaait to get behind the wheels man! and also, to prepare tang's gift before she leaves. will totally miss her. with the help of the rest, gonna make her the most memorable gift ever! finally, we're booking the thailand hotel and everything's confirming soon. it's like a dream come true yeaa. i pray that rachel is able to come with us!jiayou rachel!!


question: are you sad?
answer: definitely not (:

today i thought of you.
the happy and the sad.

and i thought of now.
why cant now be as simple as it used to be in the past?
why is it that i have to go through this,
which i thought i never ever would have to?
stupid rowena.
bringing this upon yourself.
you should never have even gotten started.
for now,
you're caught trapped in this web that seems to be
getting more and more tangled,
the more you try to break free.

double double, toil and trouble.
why the fuck did i get myself into this shit in the first place?

today was just stapling of brochures at office and hence gave me much time to think about a lot of stuff.
like how would results day be like!

1. so happy that i go out with friends, far east!!
2. so happy that i go for a movie with the six of them!
3. so upset that i just stone in class
4. so upset that i sit inside the toilet and remain aimless.
5. so upset that i go for sushi buffet and start binging
6. so upset that i just go home and switch off the brain.
7. so upset that i wanna call someone and cry to that someone
8. so upset that i need someone to just be there, even to speak nothing.
9. so upset that i just sit at the bustop, not daring to go home

and wow, the upsets overweigh the happys!
tells a lot.
i dont need A A B,
just something not ugly please Lord.
i just want some assurance,
and due credit from the (hard) work that i did put in.

pray for me?
that on results day,
that i'll have the serenity to accept whatever comes.
that i can at least meet with the five of them,
and know that they're also doing fine..

is it really march6?
can it be later?
:(

Dressed up to the eyes
It's a wonderful surprise
To see your shoes and your spirits rise
Throwing out your frown
And just smiling at the sound
And as sleek as a shriek
Spinning round and round
Always take a big bite
It's such a gorgeous sight
To see you in the middle of the night
You can never get enough
Enough of this stuff
It's Friday
I'm in love

Because i am not as articulate in my expression as elizabeth in the illustrations of my feelings with my very limited creativity, i shall sum up the gist of my thoughts in four words:

i'm getting damn fat.

on and about
with work and supper with the friends.
i cannot wait for so many things to happen.

for 18feb to come so i can pass ftt and start driving so as to save money on stupid ezlink topups.
for results day to come so i can end this antagonising and what seems like a neverending wait.
gosh.
for march to end so that april can come.
for the thailand trip in april which i believe will be AMAZING.
for my life to pass faster so that i dont have to ponder over unnecessary things that cloud my mine and put a frown on my face all the time.
for a clearer picture?
for some enthusiasm so that i can stop slacking and get on my feet to exercise.
for God to pave a smooth path for me to walk my life.

realised that i've been blogging in point form recently.
organised. just some "values" i inculcated from working in office.

F.
some beetle just landed on me that caused me to leap out of my seat and shriek.
is this a way perking me up from my laid back listless self?
ITS NOT WORKING.

tgif.
really, TG.

i've learnt,
to treasure life.
to live it to the full.
it's too short,
shouldnt even slow down.
there are so many things to do,
so many things to say.
everyone around me suddenly seem so important,

too important
- to not forgive their wrongdoings
- to ignore
- to miss out on any opportunity to see them
- to be upset over petty issues
- to look at the bad and overlook the good
- to resent
- to have cold war with
- to use swear words and shoot dagger stares
- to take for granted
- to think they'll always be there and so i dont have to bother

i want to
care more,
smile more,
laugh more,
joke more,
talk more,
love more.

to all the people out there whom i care for(you know it's YOU!!),
please know i do.
(:

If i told you i love you, can i keep you forever?
Casper the ghost (friendly meh?)

work's just getting fun
cos i got to do some really challenging stuff like for the first time
instead of just doing the dull printing photocopying shit.
cant wait for work on monday. hahaha more so because..
i left my charger in the office! sian.
i'll probably be uncontactable by sunday afternoon? but whatever. ahhahah

zouk flea market ftw man,
followed by some ideas for the gift of our beloved
who's departing for melbourne soon :(
time really flies man!
we've yet to take a proper picture together!
rachel,
let's squeeze some brainjuices (for the first time since after A's)
for the ideas ok?
[P.S I WINK BACK AT YOU]
hahhaa tang better not know that i'm typing this.

christiannanana there haven't been anything that i havent told you.
on the contrary,
it's more like you who've been so fishy..
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
but alas,
i'm not nosey parker.
won't pry open your mouth if you don't wanna say anything.
HAHA.
justkidding my dear.


fly me to the moon,
even if it's the day time :D

Feeling random.
cant wait for thailand!!!
hee if can (: