i am getting old before i really wanna even admit it
:/
kana made fun off by mark and gareth about my compaq laptop.

mark: now compaq laptops all got the big Q as the logo, yours still using the traditional "compaq" logo ah. HAHAHA
me: its still functioning well okay! dont discriminate!
mark: is it windows 98
-glances at the screen-
mark: WAH. using Vista ah. aiseh, so ancient, i still thought 98 leh
me: idiot!!!

i still took heart to know that despite the age of the laptop,
it was still within its functional means.
hence i DENOUNCED their valueless comments.
lol.

rachel came over for a short while to chill,
and the moment she touched my phone,
it blanked out.

rachel: ro! what happen? did i jinx your phone?
me: i think you did leh. HA.
rachel: wahlao where got so qiao!
me: shit, i think i dropped it during church meeting just now! lcd screen cui alr!
rachel: haha please, get a new phone and stop using this lao pok one!

what she says is true even though my nokia hols sentimental value
with me these TWO years!!!
sighs.
this is too sudden an influx of techonological crises for me to bear.
might take a toll on my pocket too.
not to mention i'm not the only child my parents are providing for.
BUT BUT BUT
thankfully my sister's willing to let me have a phone with the upgrade of her plan.
:D great sister!
woohoo thank god!

i'm loving the chinese new year holidays and i dont wish for school to resume!
i want longer breaks!!!
i love the thought of collecting angpows and
eating like there's no tomorrow.
funny thing, i love running after eating a lot too.
cant wait to stay fit after this sinful season.
haha! the irony of it all.
now now.
how to tell my mother i lost my specs!?!?!

so fast.
tmr is cny eve.
yet another year has passed.
what have i been doing the whole year?
doesnt seem like the beginning of the year.
the beginning for me somewhat started during july or august.
it must be the uni system,
weird time to start school.
but heard news that for my year 2,
school starts only on 30aug,
which means we have 4 solid months of holidays!
which means no slack,
but hard work man.
cannot waste time.
must prove my capability!
quite a lot of free time because
you're going for your internship.
but time will pass very fast yeaa!

keeping in mind that its the NEW year,
there are somethings that i need to do:
EAT MORE. hahaha i'm serious.
save more. cos my atm machine needs to breathe at time too.
talk more. firmly believe that class part is so crucial to score!
exercise more. cannot get complacent thinking that i am SO okayy, when i'm not.
pray more. because conversation with god is most effective of them all.
then there's also things to do less of, how could i forget.
EAT less. junk food la, what you thinking. i not anorexic pls.
pms less. cos you really dont deserve such shit, reallyyyyy.
facebook less. cos this evil crap is truly trashy.
bitch less. i'm not an angel myself to begin with. i know right.

the list can go on.
but i'm so sleepy i cant remember.
did i mention i lost my specs again.
on the train. damn it.
who is that arsehole who'd wanna take my weird-combi-of-degrees specs?
get a life please?

STUPIDiot

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will you bring a better future than I had in the past
oh cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again

this whole week has been whoa!
and seems like so fast since newyear past.
cant believe we're venturing into week 3 already.
life's been pretty sweet to me,
fall short of a few hiccups here and there.

tutorial classes and presentation dates have been set,
and so have the examinations in april.
haha yesyes, there goes my birthday.
i like my tutorial groups a lot.
different people in different groups,
but the atmosphere is very different from first sem,
when i knew not a single soul,
and introduction starts off with pindrop silence.
now everyone knows everybody and its a nice feeling.

as much as i know exams should be number1,
there are also other important things i rank far above studies.
namely
nyc2010! xphysique 2010! sports camp 2010!
the one i'm most lagging in is probably xphy,
but i guess slowly but surely it will come,
and go go go!
hahahah that's what i look forward to.
sports camp is another big hurdle that i need to cross.
challeging woo.

can so totally envisioning myself pledge off sports club and declare defunct
in the next ay.
free from all the meetings and discussions.
and more so,
being able to go home everyday after school
(hopefully can organize three day week)
and not be confined in lonely four (dusty) walls of hall7.
ahh that is freedom.
and when i do want to stay in hall,
squatting in huimin's hall would do just fine? :D

in the meantime,
got to chiong chionggg for this semester and
do whatever i can to pull the GPA up up up!
haha.

Go tell everyone,
the news that God's kingdom has come!

You, doin that thing you do.
Breaking my heart into a million pieces,
like you always do.
And you don't mean to be cruel,
but you never even knew about the heartache,
i've been going through.

everything went smoothly when i stopped eating dark chocolates.
the thought was diminishing, day by day.
but why did you have to buy me a bar of dark chocolate?
got me addicted, all over again.
now i cant stop myself.
what would you do?

publicity for xphy today was alright,
managed to complete everything within two hours.
after which met gareth russell nigel
and walked around applied science school.
IDLING and LEPAKing around.
haha. tp is interesting.
the singer at the gathering point,
sang Thinking of You.
nice song there.
lots of sad hidden meaning.
she must've been through a lot i reckon.

You're like an indian summer
in the middle of a winter.
Like a hard candy
with a surprise centre.
How do i get better once
i've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water,
so the water i will test.

He kissed my lips i taste your mouth,
he pulled me in i was disgusted with myself.

Cause when i'm with him i am thinking of you,
thinking of you, what you would do if
you were the one who was spending the night,
oh i wish that i was looking into your eyes.

You're the best and yes, i do regret
How i could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned.
I touched it, i was burned.
Oh, i think you should know.

Cause when i'm with him i am thinking of you.
Thinking of you, what you would do if
you were the one who was spending the night,
oh i wish that i was looking into your eyes.

Oh, won't you walk through?
And bust in the door and take me away?
Oh, no more mistakes,
cause in your eyes i'd like to stay.

give me two weeks.
i will sort out my thinking.
live a better life,
give minimal hurt to people,
study hard and mark up the atrocious gpa.

this heart it beats,
beats for only..

rowena lee is a real bitch.
why must you go for dark chocolates when you know that
they are not healthy.
wake up your idea.
what do you really want.

forgiveness is the sweetest present yet.