i hate him.
i hate them.
stop thinking you are so right,
and that the whole bloody world should revoive around you.
just because you have no life and you
willing slave yourself to this shit,
dont implicate people who do have a life,
and want to live it to the fullest.
and just because you pledged yourself to HELL,
dont assume that others people are willing to do likewise.
you enjoy living this sad sad life,
good for you.
remain that way.
but i'm no you okay.
i want to live a life of wholesomeness.
i have my friends,
my church,
my family.
who are dear to me.
just because you are willing to forgo yours (wow, you actually have them..)
dont assume that other people carry the same mentality as you.
now as i think back,
i cannot believe that i even had the thought that living a life like yours
was good and fun.
ewwww utter turnoff.
you are exaggerated,
insecure,
and unreasonable.
you detest the life out of me totally man.
but i know that because i voluntarily signed up for your fking shit,
i mus keep my word and suck it up.
seeing your face makes me feel like throwing up.
you're worse than the disgusting girl i dislike in lecture.
than the weirdo i see on the streets.
than the whole world of odd creatures.
i still do work as told not because i respect you.
it is because i respect the authority that have been considerate and reasonable.
you have them to thank man.

and your stupid assistant the shit face.
whole day only know how to talk and yak and yak.
nothing more than an empty vessel.
my friend was right in the insult man.
you are only a clashing cymbal,
that makes nothing but noise that pollute my ears and
waste precious human time.
who knows not how to make yourself useful when you see us in trouble
and in need of help.
for all i know, you could be telling on us to him behind our backs.
but wtf
i dont care.
because i know that i have done and contributed more than you in this.
i can at least say i made the effort and have come thus far.
you?
whole day only know how to eat and eat and eat during meetings.
the only way you lose your calories is by lifting your fingers
to make phone calls to me,
chasing me for something that wouldnt have needed chasing,
should you have offered a helping hand earlier.
but whatever,
not like i am dying for your help.
good riddance to bad rubbish in fact.
maybe if you were to help,
you'd just drag the whole damn process down
and in the blink of an eye,
the whole thing is over.

screw you both man.
eww no, no screw.
shit you both deep deep.

scared scared scared.

monday- programmer meeting till 1am plus
tuesday- xphy event briefing till 1am plus too
wednesday- xphy dry run briefing till 1am plus.
thursday- maundy thurs visiting till 12am plus
friday- good friday passion play
saturday- easter vigil mass till 12am
sunday- xphy dryrun whole day

God grant me strength!!!
anberlin is my friend.

talk about retro (:



i'm the one who wants to be with you

this songs is really upbeat.
something i need now.
because there are a lot of mixed emotions.
haha just wondering.
is there a
He takes me high? ;D

different. so different.
it all felt strangely different.
haha

yea i'm fine. what's a little setback.
not like i'm the only one in the world facing it.
no doubt some will progress faster than me,
but its just part of life i guess.
thanks for all your concern and prayers.
i was at first disillusioned.
and i seriously wanted to scream at that guy.
but of course i didnt.
dont know what to say now.
urgh.

nights are ironically the best and worst time to do things.
it is pin drop silent, without any
annoying brothers to irritate the
trying-to-be-hardworking me.
looking forward to the thought of being able to sleep peacefully without
being worried that an assignment is left undone.
yet it also makes me think of the nostalgic past.
haha dont know what suddenly came to me,
thoughts kept rushing through my mind,
as i recollect tiny bits of detail that i still remember,
that happened not too long ago.
and of course,
not to mention thoughts of the TP on thursday also makes me
shudder, just thinking of the tester's face.. :s
just thank God that an assignment is done,
and now with two more test for the week,
plus one resume assignment, and i am
so done!

i am getting old before i really wanna even admit it
:/
kana made fun off by mark and gareth about my compaq laptop.

mark: now compaq laptops all got the big Q as the logo, yours still using the traditional "compaq" logo ah. HAHAHA
me: its still functioning well okay! dont discriminate!
mark: is it windows 98
-glances at the screen-
mark: WAH. using Vista ah. aiseh, so ancient, i still thought 98 leh
me: idiot!!!

i still took heart to know that despite the age of the laptop,
it was still within its functional means.
hence i DENOUNCED their valueless comments.
lol.

rachel came over for a short while to chill,
and the moment she touched my phone,
it blanked out.

rachel: ro! what happen? did i jinx your phone?
me: i think you did leh. HA.
rachel: wahlao where got so qiao!
me: shit, i think i dropped it during church meeting just now! lcd screen cui alr!
rachel: haha please, get a new phone and stop using this lao pok one!

what she says is true even though my nokia hols sentimental value
with me these TWO years!!!
sighs.
this is too sudden an influx of techonological crises for me to bear.
might take a toll on my pocket too.
not to mention i'm not the only child my parents are providing for.
BUT BUT BUT
thankfully my sister's willing to let me have a phone with the upgrade of her plan.
:D great sister!
woohoo thank god!

i'm loving the chinese new year holidays and i dont wish for school to resume!
i want longer breaks!!!
i love the thought of collecting angpows and
eating like there's no tomorrow.
funny thing, i love running after eating a lot too.
cant wait to stay fit after this sinful season.
haha! the irony of it all.
now now.
how to tell my mother i lost my specs!?!?!

so fast.
tmr is cny eve.
yet another year has passed.
what have i been doing the whole year?
doesnt seem like the beginning of the year.
the beginning for me somewhat started during july or august.
it must be the uni system,
weird time to start school.
but heard news that for my year 2,
school starts only on 30aug,
which means we have 4 solid months of holidays!
which means no slack,
but hard work man.
cannot waste time.
must prove my capability!
quite a lot of free time because
you're going for your internship.
but time will pass very fast yeaa!

keeping in mind that its the NEW year,
there are somethings that i need to do:
EAT MORE. hahaha i'm serious.
save more. cos my atm machine needs to breathe at time too.
talk more. firmly believe that class part is so crucial to score!
exercise more. cannot get complacent thinking that i am SO okayy, when i'm not.
pray more. because conversation with god is most effective of them all.
then there's also things to do less of, how could i forget.
EAT less. junk food la, what you thinking. i not anorexic pls.
pms less. cos you really dont deserve such shit, reallyyyyy.
facebook less. cos this evil crap is truly trashy.
bitch less. i'm not an angel myself to begin with. i know right.

the list can go on.
but i'm so sleepy i cant remember.
did i mention i lost my specs again.
on the train. damn it.
who is that arsehole who'd wanna take my weird-combi-of-degrees specs?
get a life please?

STUPIDiot

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will you bring a better future than I had in the past
oh cause, I don't wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don't wanna fall back on my face again

this whole week has been whoa!
and seems like so fast since newyear past.
cant believe we're venturing into week 3 already.
life's been pretty sweet to me,
fall short of a few hiccups here and there.

tutorial classes and presentation dates have been set,
and so have the examinations in april.
haha yesyes, there goes my birthday.
i like my tutorial groups a lot.
different people in different groups,
but the atmosphere is very different from first sem,
when i knew not a single soul,
and introduction starts off with pindrop silence.
now everyone knows everybody and its a nice feeling.

as much as i know exams should be number1,
there are also other important things i rank far above studies.
namely
nyc2010! xphysique 2010! sports camp 2010!
the one i'm most lagging in is probably xphy,
but i guess slowly but surely it will come,
and go go go!
hahahah that's what i look forward to.
sports camp is another big hurdle that i need to cross.
challeging woo.

can so totally envisioning myself pledge off sports club and declare defunct
in the next ay.
free from all the meetings and discussions.
and more so,
being able to go home everyday after school
(hopefully can organize three day week)
and not be confined in lonely four (dusty) walls of hall7.
ahh that is freedom.
and when i do want to stay in hall,
squatting in huimin's hall would do just fine? :D

in the meantime,
got to chiong chionggg for this semester and
do whatever i can to pull the GPA up up up!
haha.

Go tell everyone,
the news that God's kingdom has come!