i'm
- failing my tests.
- emo-ing.
- showing attitude.
- eating .
- going out.
- not wanting to go home.
- spending.

too much everyday!

my life is screwed up la.
i'm self-inflicting all these sadness
why why why!?


yesterday night,
i dreamt of my class.
as in 1T13.
and how i wish things could go back to square ONE.
when we first started out.
things were going so fine, so smoothly,
until all the true colours started to surface.
all the ugly selfish sides.
i dreamt that our class was smiling, laughing happily.
everyone was innocent and just enjoying the time we were with each other.
that night was probably finale night,
day six of orientation one.
and we were on a bus.
it was so fun,
although we did not know each other well,
it was a light-hearted moment.
and everyone was there, enjoying each other's presence.
he was there too.
sitting in front of me.
he was laughing, his usual self.

why cant things remain the same?
why must there be changes?
changes that pain me?
tell me tell me!
i don't want these changes.
i miss those days.
macdonalds was simple,
but the times spent were priceless.
totally enjoyable.
i want them back,
badly.
can you bring them back to me?