today, i finally have sometime to blog, and am in the mood to blog.
ha.
pass few days have been not hectic, but badly organised i guess.
and not everything has been running smoothly i must say.

last week was birthday, not the best.
but i must say a BIG thankyou to the special few who made it a pleasant one.
charmaine ezra aaron nicolette yinting laodie eliz.
thanks for the time at oishi. =)
and the rest who contributed to the pencil case, sorry i don't know who are all the people.
but if you know you're one of them,
this thankyou is for you.
and the many birthday wishes, many were unexpected and surprising. :)

then saturday went study at macs, was un/productive aye i must say.
hahaha.
study was followed by easter vigil at cathedral (of the Good Sherperd), not St Andrew's.
yeap.
only two hours. the ambience was nice.

sunday was easter sunday. and was a total wreck for me.
morning read for 730 mass,
then helped at the easter carnival.
after which i went to angmokio
and my father called me to ask me where i was.
when i told him i was at amk going to study with my friends,
he was like WAD.
and he scolded me through the phone when i was in church.
and i felt damn bad
cos i felt like swearing at him,
when i was in church,
attending mass.
i mean,
i'm going out to study luhh,
not play, why must you make such an effing big fuss about it?
and when i ask him why? he said : "I WANT TO SEE WHERE THE HEAVEN YOU CAN STUDY AT ANGMOKIO"
and i'm like "angmokio so big, sure can study one luhh, you think wad?"
but i obviously did not say that.
i don't know wad is his problem.
I AM GOING TO STUDY, NOT PLAY! WHY ARE YOU KICKING SUCH A BIG FUSS?
and if the issue is about spending time with the family on the weekend,
i'm sorry.
but wad do we do during the weekend all the time?
stay at home.
and wad does my father do?
work on his effing computer all day long.
sorry for using vulgarities.
i know it's wrong.
but this time,
i really think that i am NOT in the wrong and sometimes,
i think my father should just ask HIMSELF whether the problem lies with him instead of others around him.
BUT.
alas,
i will say nothing against him to rebuke him,
because of my father's sensitivity,
he has issues about everything and anything i do,
hence the best thing to do,
the BEST thing, i say,
is to just shut up and abide by his every order.
this is the sole way i can survive.
and thanks to him.
he just installed some effed-up parental control shit thing in the computer which will immediately log off at 10pm sharp.
so people, in future,
when talking to me on msn or anything,
if i suddenly don't reply you or smth at ten pm,
kindly pardon me,
or should i say, my father,
for causing the inconvenience.
yes.
FINALLY,
i wanna say a big thankyou to Br Paul.
for having the wondrous parent teacher meeting,
and enlightnening my father to keep a stricter eye on me,
and watch on my every move since then.
it is really appreciated.
life really sucks now, credits to him.

today i heave a sigh of relief.
gone through three tests.
functions test was okay because kind ms chia allowed pair work for the test.
ha! first time eh.
econs is a goner, believe me.
thankyou to ms ho.
chemistry was more manageable than the one during first intake.
but there were still some blanks here and there =x
ohwell, tried my best and that's wad's most impt.
afterwhich went to the library to study.
ahh, a productive hour.

all in all,
my life sucks now.
anyone who can help?