just as things have been improving for me,
things are just going downhill for a friend of mine.
this friend, has family problems, thinks that life is meaningless, and even contemplated death.
it's such a pity.
i feel that there has got to be more to life than just those problems and sorrows we face all the time.
where are the smiles? where are the laughters?
i want them. badly.
and now.
i'm laughing and smiling my most in class, everyone noticed!
which is good.
i don't want to be a spoilsport.
i want to be the positive cell of my class, and also for people around me.
:D

today is day three.
the day seemed boring,
and whenever i thought about that thing,
my mind would go round in circles,
my heart aches badly,
but i tell myself to stop thinking.

at night went to play pool with my cousin and chanchan.
the two pros played.
haha, i think my cousin is better than chanchan,
but jia you, as practice makes perfect chanchan!
haha,
shall have more pool sessions with you so that i can also improve.
haha. i was a total joke at pool table la!

anyhow.
ang pow collection was bad,
plain bad.
but i don't care.
i'm gonna ask mother to give me more!
hhahah.

econs project is due on 21st feb, this wed.
appparently half my grp cant make it,
and no one seems to give a damn.
most probably i'll crash feng's house tmr and see how char do their project and get some pointers. lol.
tmr is chu san.
which will probably be a boring one unless i plan it well.
and hopefully everything will turn out smoothly.

i wanted to take the initiative,
but was one step faster.
i'm glad.
but i think things are still monotonous,
which is real sad.





right from the start,
my love made me blind,
but i miss you finally.

this is apparently the first day of chinese new year,
but i don't feel like it's a brand new start.
i feel that everything for the past few days have been going downhill for me,
and things are working to my disadvantage.

i'm so distracted by that thing.
everytime i tell myself not to think about it,
it comes back to haunt me,
and it's so sad just thinking about it.
somebody help me!
i feel lilke a pathetic soul wandering aimlessly on earth.







but only love can say,
try again or walk away.
but i believe for you and me,
the sun will shine one day.
so i just play my part,
and pray you'll have a change of heart.
but i can't make you see it through,
that something only love can do.

one month exactly has passed since i entered cjc!
so many things happened!
and i' m so thankful for all the good things that happened!
made wonderful friends.
love my wonderful class.
the wonderful people (?)
haha.
and not forgetting..
haha.
yeah..

i'm so happy with my results too!
and i dare not ask for more.
the results are simply too good for me.
and staying in CJ i am!
that's the promise i made.
and i will keep it.

but not everything ended on a happy note.
eunice left on 5thfeb to melbourne.
was quite a happy farewell though.
cos there were many people there
and everyone was in a high mood.
so it was all smiles.
at least tang knows that she'll always be in our hearts!
haha
so EMO.

yeah.
my latest.. trend?
yea.
emo..
x)

2 weeks has past since sch reopened.
and it has been a blast.
6 days of orientation was.. fruitful?
enriching.
fun.
interesting.
eye-opening.
i must say there's a stark contrast from secondary school.

i'm missing the PEOPLE from sjc.
but not sjc.

made new friends.
bimbos and non bimbos.
nerds and bengs.
haha
wad a whole new world.

the most outrageous stuff i did,
was today.
ODAC orientation.
yes you guessed it.
it was totally adventurous.
we sat inside the drain. and did sit-ups.
HUH?
YA.
that was wad was on my mind.
haha
might sound hilarious.
but i did just that.
plus other even more out of this world nonsensical stuff.
i did it today.
haha

people in jc are okay.
matured i should say.
haha.
10years from a girls' school.
to suddenly go to jc.
it took time to adjust.
but i guess i'm aye okay.

got the subject combi of my choice.
am really happy!

my class, 1t13.
brenda's in my class!!
yea!
my laodie, my pillar of strength!!
im' really glad.
haha.
someone to talk to
gossip with
and laugh with
during lectures.
in the canteen.
makes my day.
thanks laodie!

pray that jc will remain this fun!
and pray that i can stay after first thre months!
=D

chance upon this super cheeky pick-up line.

hey babe, let's do some mathematics: add a bed, minus the clothes, divide your legs and we'll multiply!

wth!

ENGLISH ; i love you
POLISH ; ja kocham cibie
FRENCH ; je t'aime
HINDI ; hum tumhe pyar karte hae
CZECH ; miluji te
SLOVAKIAN ; lu'bim ta
ITALIAN ; ti amo
UKRAINIAN ; ya tebe kahayu
GERMAN ; ish libe dish
CHINESE ; wo ai ni
GREEK ; s' agapo
HAWAIAN ; aloha wau ia oi
LITHUIANIAN ; tav myliu
KOREAN ; sa rang hae yo
JAPENESE ; aishiteru
ROMANIAN ; te ubsec
BOSNIAN ; volim te
ALBANIAN ; te dua
FILIPINO ; mahal kita
SPANISH ; te amo
PORTUGESE ; amo te
ARABIAN ; annah be hebic

came across this.
isn't this sweet.
lol.

thursday's bio practical was fine. but quite sad cos PLANTS came out, and i cAn't do PLANTS for nuts.
but i guess i wrote lots of stuff. vomitted evrything i knew.
i dare say i'm like the most kiasu candidate in the lab.
i drew, scribbled, wrote on the practical exam paper until my paper looked crumpled.
u know..
those type of paper which look as if lots of stuff has been written on it,
ahah.
a sense of satisfaction. =D

i found a new LOVE.
Kim Jung Hoon. 김정훈
yay!!
he's so HOT.
and..
if you're a guy,
i tell u.
you're definitely turn gay.
so please..
go and watch goong.
it's on channel U.
7.00pm weeknights.
OR
youtube.
just watch alright.
rowena lee's reccommendations are NEVER wrong.
=))
oh ya,
one last thing,

KIM JUNG HOON IS HOT!!
I LOVE HIM TO BITS!

Officially graduated from that school last friday.
i've never been happier.
took pictures with friends whom i assume i'll miss.
haha
and i didn't cry!
i dunno why.
many people cried.
but not me!

yesterday watched World Trade Center with clara wong.
and was supposed to study after that.
but was totally unproductive.
Hence i decided to stay at home today to study and make up for losses.

Olevels is a mere 2week away issue.
and i'm taking it lightly.
oOps.
this thurs is science practical.
i love QA.
but i hate bio.
with all the plant and tomato nonsense.
then this friday will be having consultation with all the teachers.

my dream came true!!
watched forbidden city yesterday. was super nice!
credits to lijun.
i'm still thinking about the whole musical even up till now.
it was fantastic!
not only was it FORBIDDEN CITY, it was the premier!
whoa, how cool is that!
after that went to eat dinner with eli aggie tang sam.
was boring, ate macs. *pukes
went home.
was literally freaked out when i thought about alst night.
thanks to the 4 of you, i'm home safely.
and not forgetting eli's mum too.

yesterday that maid of mine went home!
yay!
yet another dream come true.
it was a long and frightening story, but all is well now.
i love maidless-ness.
september holidays was a wreck.
i didn't make full use of the holidays to really study.
but just randomly studying here and there.

now everyone's asking whether to go prom.
it's at Copthorne Kings Hotel.
err.
last year they had it at Rasa Sentosa,
and now>??!
stupid shit.
and moreover, not only do we have pay for the fee,
we also have to pay for gown, hair, make up, shoes, etc etc.
wow, wad a bomb.
and moreover, what's the point of going,
if i'm not with the people i want to be with,
force won't brng happiness.
right?
i don't want to force myself to go just cos everyone's going.
that's so.. fake?
i think i probably won't enjoy myself.
and i'll also feel bad putting up with the 4e ppl.
they're really nice ppl.
but i somehow don't want to treat them as substitutes.
the problem lies with me. it's not them.
i've got this big screwed up problem since last year, july.
everyone has gotten over it except me.
sometimes i can't stand myself for being like that.
but i can't help it.
when i see the people i miss,
all the bad feelings rush back.
ai ya!
stop it.

today had career seminar.
temasek, singapore ploy lecturers came.
Br Paul, principal from cjc came too.
all of them seemed eager for us to come to their respective institutes.
however before they began their talks,
many, not all, congratulated us for being the only school that was commended by PM Lee during the national day rally.
this really made me have second thoughts.
occasionally i wonder to myself, if chij sjc was not commended on national tv during the rally,
would those lecturers still be eager for us to go to their institutes?
had PM lee not spoken about sjc during the rally, would sjc be as "well-known" and "prestigious" as we are now, with all the polys in singapore coming and trying to attract sjc girls to their various institutes like how a magnet attract paper clips.

anyway.

prelims just over.
i'm crossing my fingers to do well.
i really hope to get to cjc.
science stream is 12.
i'm sceptical actually,
cos i was quite slack.

good news, i've got an a2 for cca.
actually thought i would get b3 or something,
considering my slackness during sec4.
must thank God, now with this a2,
i'll be able to minus 2pts frm my L1R5 aggregate!
plus another 2pts from affiliation,
let's see..
i'll need >16 to get to cj.
ok, much easier. =D
actually i kind of planned my path already.
ok summary at a glance->
compulsory subjects in jc: general paper and mother tongue
H1- History
H2- Chemistry
H2- Economics
H2- Mathematics
i hope this is a sensible combination and
i really pray hard that i don't regret this combi.

tuition has also helped tremendously.
i really sense my amath improving,
i hope the results can tell all.
yes, hoping that i can get 1 for both maths.
haha.

this thursday is teacher's day celebrations.
i cant wait to visit huang laoshi.
i miss her so very much.
the only thing i'm hesitant about.
my chinese o level results.
man.
i don't know how to face her.
i feel that i've disappointed her so very much.
and my primary school friends.
cedar's having their prelims today.
so sad, the celebrations are amid the exams.

I'll be there for you
these five words I swear to you
When you breathe
I wanna be the air for you
I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you
I'd steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what love can do
I'll be there for you

confirmation is finally over!
yay, after 4yrs of class,
i finally graduated! i'm so happy!
18th june 2006, in white, at nativity church.
ahh, the moment which i savoured.
=)

before that had tripartite camp.
was okay.
quite fun.
but tired after it.
wasn't as spiritual as i thought it would be.
and.,
i thought jb camp was more fun.
=)

on 27th june, tues.
it was Passing Out Parade 2006.
finally,
it was my turn to be
kawalan kehormatan.
it was splendid.
though it was small,
it was still significant for me.
jac and rachel are confirm becoming CI.
but i'm really unsure.

on the same day was also tang's birthday.
went swensen's to celebrate.
was fun, crap lots.
ate good food,
but burnt my pocket.
=)

had english oral on thurs.
i thought it was just a practice.
but it was actually english prelims!
haha, i was totally in the dark.
but anyway,
i can safely i did okay.
=)

next tues will be chinese oral.
man,
i think i'm gonna watch mandarin news,
read mandarin newspaper,
and speak mandarin.

zai jian!