polar,
sometimes i feel its really weird.
i'm mostly in hall on monday and tuesday,
and it seems quite lifeless.
then wednesday is where activities all start,
and thats when you come,
and i hardly get to spend time with you.
no time to really hear your problems.
and even when we talk,
we've got to resort to facebook?!
oh man.
roomie, i just need to say
i'm really sorry if i've pangsehed you cos of AOB,
and left you in the room when you always wait for me to bathe.
you're loved too.
really!!
your water boiler is loved too :D

well projects and assignments are taking their toll and i
feel the pressure already.
deadlines seem to draw nearer faster than expected.
mixed feelings about a lot of things.
happy and sad and in between.

sam left on tuesday night and sent a quick sms.
there she left, just like that.
coming back in december, i hope?
that girl, i worry for her.
ohwell take care i still love you.

cant believe that the feeling of scepticism came in so fast.
i thought the nice feeling was supposed to last longer?!
but i guess it's been working out well?
yesterday had basketball training and
he came to stone table despite not finishing project to surprise!
:):):)
i love..
apples!
:):):)

the first xphysique meeting almost killed me,
with five deadlines to meet from now till
end of march next year.
i cant believe i actually agreed to that portfolio.
but since i've nodded my head,
i just have to bite the bullet and try my best.
programmers duty,
the two chiefs think "highly" of me,
put me in planning outings.
stress!!
there's still my core modules
and electives.
i am ashamed to say that during this week of holiday,
i only completed ONE assignment.
i am such a bummer!! ):

mon to wed was basically roller coaster
cos i was in hall throughout when i came
down with stomach flu,
diarrhoea like crazy.
would've just died if i was left alone.
missed so many events,
i am so upset with myself.
thankfully the people have been really understanding.
was only wed night that i was fully clear (THANKGOD).
and i could stay awake for threehours of lecture on thurs!
claps.. haha.

then on thurs night just before wanting to bathe at 1am,
i suddenly told gerald abt this idea of shifting our furniture to make
the room more cosy.
she said yes, and
we got to work!
damn funny how the loud furniture sounded at 130am,
i bet the neighbours were cursing us la.
but the turnout was i felt,
best (Y)
roomie love ftw!!
hahaaa.
what thurs night was supposed to be (study for midterms)
turned out otherwise.
haha rowena lee you suck.
fell asleep at 3am without even breathing any sociology text into myself.

midterm test today ended up a flop when they asked
about importance of empirical evidence,
ethnocentricism,
wtshit?!
good thing only ten percent this sem.
haha still happy about the room! grins.

oh yes!
i got into xphysique publicity main comm.
yes you didnt hear wrongly,
main comm.
think i'm killing myself.
but hey, it's only year1.
dont get to do this always.
and i'm also programmer for the next sports camp.
woots!
lastly,
aizat psycho-ed me into cultural subcomm for hall.
okay lor,
collect free points.
hahahaaa.

yes okay geraldine ho did play a part in making uni life fun, for like.. wednesdays thursdays and fridays(half)??? lol just kidding.

lots of things running through my mind these few days.
wont admit that i'm fully settled down.
still very slack with readings,
but got complete assignments at least! hahaaa.

i went for interview to be subcomm for publications in sports club.
got accepted, but i turned them down for fear of being unable to commit.
also went for Xphysique secretary/treasurer position.
haha so i can have a taste of how kevin's life is like, lol.
went for ball committee, to help next year pageant and d&d.
sounds like fun uh!
went for programmer position too.
that was my biggest challenge because they said that programmers only entitled 3 hall points, so if i commit to programmers, highly likely that i wont stay hall next year.
and honestly, i dont mind not staying hall. hall's screwing up my life (not your fault roomie)

i went home on tuesday to celebrate mother's birthday.
and realise that there were many things i missed,
and gotta admit,
took for granted since school started.

my mother,
father
sister
five of them
grandparents
church people
tauhuay
serangoon gardens
dark chocolates
city hall
late night phone calls

but it's very much like how i said in the beginning.
things have changed so much,
and can never ever return to the past like how it used to be.
i still think of the good old times.
but i tell myself, move on.
i cannot be unfair to you.
till then,
i really have so many things to tell you,
yet i know not where to start.

uni life is hectic.
but i'm enjoying it.
haha
new home
new friends
new school
new bed
new canteen

but nothing beats the good old times
old friends whom i have not forgotten!
wahaha lets meet up soon.
do you guys miss me as much as i miss you??
:D

You're like an indian summer in
The middle of a winter
LIke a hard candy
With a surprise centre
How do i get better
Once i've had the best
You said there's tons of fish in the water
So the waters i will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when i'm with him
I am thinking you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one who was spending the night
Oh i wish that i was looking into

You're the best
And yes i do regret
How i could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learnt
I touched it I was burnt
Oh i think you should know

Cause when i'm with him
I am thinking you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one who was spending the night
Oh i wish that i was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
No more mistakes,
Cos in your eyes i'd like to stay

woots.
life is good.
quite stress.
haha
thank god.

you make me feel sick.






yesterday was one of the longest days of my life,
with many things going on which made me rather..
turned off.
final day of beach volleyball signed off on a good note
because of the good weather and nice people i got to know.
lectors meeting after that was pleasant because of
the pleasing turnout.
but nyc meeting was just bittersweet.
yes thats the word.
like damn gross la please.
hate it when you BIG BIG talk like some loud hailer,
but never really lifted a finger.
wtf. okay if you're really such a person,
i pity you.
but let's just hope you're not.
after all,
you've been in this longer than me.
maybe i was the one who's been naively doing what i was told to,
without even realising that i've been So cheated.
aiya whatever.

then it was off to the airport to send samantha off.
i must apologize for the very anti climax attitude.
i really needed to scream,
but i dont know for what.
ah crap.
i'm sorry sam,
if you're reading this.
i hope that all's good for you in melbourne.
shit, just mentioning the name scares me.
i'm going to miss you dear friend.

yesterday was just bad bad bad.
i cant wait for school to start and live in jurong.
shit man.

camp was a success and i'm so so so so so happy!
the games that i was fretting over for 72 hours nonstop.
was a success with many people saying "damn fun" at the end!
cheerios!!
and the session,
was exactly as i pictured it in my mind.
for both sessions,
the people were just great,
except for some little kids which i hate to mention.
new frienships made,
old ones renewed.
aww hahah this sounds so cheesy,
but ya! love it.

Sydney on the first day was good cos it was..
shopping!!!
yeayeayeaaaaaaa awesome therapy.
the items there were surprisingly cheap,
to my delight.
lolol.
somehow i think i didnt buy enough?
the shopping was therapeutic,
BUT
the cost of the food was..
ouch!
my sis and i just had yum cha for tea,
four dishes cost us A$20.
zomg heartpain.
their wanton mee was $12,
so shouldn't we thank GOd for $2.80 pontian wanton mee here?
hahaha.

weather was cold like nothing over there,
i wore a record six layers of clothing there
even though the temp was only what, 16degrees?
hahah i'm damn weakkkkk!
was walking throughh the streets,
George street! hahha my favourite street.
saw at the QVB Country Road!
woo yay finally.
and yes eliz and tang,
i went to buy the bag!
i felt that it was a buy i deserved.
HEH :p

sunday was, i gotta say
the best of all.
because we went uphill to the blue mountains to see the very lovely views.
and i'm not a fan of sightseeing,
so this is really something that made me go WOWOWOWOW!!
yup,
we also saw the Sydney olympic park.
bet you guys forgot that sydney held the olympics back in 2000!
then on monday,
we went to the harbour bridge and opera house!
wah nicenicenice.
it was cold,
but sun was shining,
so it was HOT and COLD!
hahah sing the song.......
joke..
it was yumcha again for lunch.
the irony,
i fell in love with yumcha during this stay in Australia!
hahha angmo country and chinese food.
yummy!
next time go yumcha,
jio me!

basically the worst time i had during the whole trip was on the way back on the plane,
where it was so hotttt and stuffy!
i sat window seat,
which meant HOt and Cold again.
it was terrible,
panadol and some pill my mum gave
and i kept asking for water that,
the air stewardess all knew that i wanted water whenever i looked up.
they were nice.
but i was feeling quite guity.
ohwell.

mild mild fever and flu and sorethroat
made me almost shit in my pants when kevin told me they were symptoms.
and the most "comforting" thing he told me when i touched down
"WHat, why eat panadol? you know that paracetamol stays in your liver for four years?!"
sian.
but i was too tired and just crashed on my bed.

next day,
sorethroat and slight flu,
though no fever.
mother brought me see doctor at hougang polyclinic.
when they heard i went sydney,
they ordered for me to go ttsh.
so overrated right.
sent me to A&E,
the ambulance i was on sounded the siren.
so ACTION leh!
hahahha.
did basically all the procedures for FULL body checkup.
after SIX hours,
cleared.
Amen amen i say to you.
hahah thanks for those who prayed (:
this is followed by seven days of quarantine.
-no comments-

driving has thus been postponed till further notice,
sorry guys.
cant be the first to drive yall out for supper and fun.
wait for rachel,
her's is soon.
but dont forget to still pray for me. HEE
((:

Hayley Williams from Paramore has such a legendary and awesome voice,
her opening of Hallelujah is totally imba.
have a listen to her opening, though it isnt clear.



please pray for nativity church camp that'll be on 15-18june,
that the turnout will be good and for fine weather.
proper flow of programme and also enjoyment in the spirit of god.
haha.
in the midst of convincing my sister to go,
and i am secretly impressed with my psycho-bility,
cos she's actually considering going!
woooots!

oh man,
the song Straitjacket feeling is stuck in my head now thanks to kevin!
omg haha what an emo song, the underlying meaning is piercing.
speaking of emo songs with deep meanings,
here's a recommendation i got from clara's blog!
it's called Goodbye my almost lover.
it goes in sync with so many shows!
One tree hill, Final fantasy and even Naruto!
hahaha sweet.

Yesterday went for amplify and followed by rochor tauhuay.
it's nice,
but i think selegie at my house is the best! wooo!
hahaha then it was off to macs for some studying
which i have to admit my stamina to stay up is seriously lowwww.
but i shall pick up my pace when august come! yay!
jiayou for your prelims, must study hard and do well!
be motivated every step of the way and dont give up even in the midst of temptation!
haha, i will push you on!!

stuck at home now cos my maid's not back yet.
i got a big fat shock this morning when i realised she wasnt at home.
went to my ahma house only to realise she's helping my ahma.
bad shock man.
maid not back yet,
so means i'll probably have to give frisbee a miss! but hopefully basketball can still be on!
followed by session planning,
which i'm quite scared overall, because i'm praying that everything will fall into place and not screw up on the day itself.
it's gonna be one hell of a hectic schedule,

still having to add in driving lessons.
which have been driving me gaga!
i'm already into ten lessons and i'm still stalling.
this is pathetic or what.
especially on tues when lesson was ultimate classic.
i did something whacky and ultra mega malu.
think ubi drivers condemn me cos of my holding up of the traffic.
:/ sorry drivers.
and all that's said about the thrill of driving,
it comes with a price to pay, literally.
i'm clueless as to how to pay the fees for subsequent lessons cos my job's over.
borrowing from mother is my last resort.
going to part time (give out flyers, tuition)
anybody interested? call me thanks.

now gonna blog for flea markets to curb my tight budget!
yayyy! cant wait!

blogging from elizabeth's house now, with a new blog(name)! haha after much hesitation i decided to just settle for this MUNDANE name. but simple and nice la huh. lolol.
just ate some really good food, kudos to eliz and her maid, wahahaha i love the fish. and vege. good thing rachel dont like vege, i can eat her share. just kidding.
this blogging reminds me of secondary school days. oh the good old days.

and yeaaa! i'll be staying with polarbear in hostel!
this is so exciting and i just cant wait!
new environment, new friends, new everything!
wooooots!

gonna spend days exercising playing shopping eating!
yeayeayea.
oh rachel's asking if SWIMMING or RUNNING burns more fats.
comments anybody? hahaha doubt there'll be any since this is A new bloggg!
:D:D:D

i want to go out!!!!!!! but i dont want to spend money.
possible?
hmmm...
jobless people do help me think of ideas? (:

yayyyyyyyy to elizabeth for inviting us to her place for good food,
oh which reminds me that i should reply her email soon so that the feast may soon commence!
yeaaa foodie alert ON!

mahjong too. rachel is opening her house. coolios!
ahahahaha that is her slang.
better grab her while she's available (and before BLOCK LEAVE starts!!!)
HAHAHAH.
damn.

for school go-ers,
PUSH HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ((:

elizabeth thinks i'm blogging trash when i'm not :/
you'll regret when i stop blogging.
dont know anything about my life,
dont scold me for being dao okay.

alright maybe i am writing trash.
night world.
night you.