right now having some really mixed feelings. just had the last official np trainng for the year. it was a good and bad one i must say. good because i cant help but say my fellow squadmates really portrayed teamwork while pitching the tent, as instructed by sir. i was really touched by everyone's determination to show the people that we were capable of pitching the tent. bad because there are 5 people in my squad retaining. that is really sad thing. they have really been great squadmates for the past three years. it ain't easy to let go of the bond that our squad shared for sucha long time. but in our hearts, we all know that you'll always be our squadmates and true friends.

we'll all miss your enthusiasm and hype in the squad. always thinking of funny lame ideas for the squad. you really brought much joy to the squad. to me, you've been great frens, talking about all sort of stuff all the time. you're always my dear squadmates and frens. always.


ok. sad things aside. let me talk about my end-yr results. not exactly remarkable, but i must say i'm quite shocked by the results. i expected a higher mark for my L1R5. but to my surprise, it was lower, much lower than i expected. =D overall pass! saddening thing being, a lot of my frens are being retained. chinese saying: "zao zhi jing ri, he bi dang chu". i know i'm blunt in my words. but really, wad i honestly feel is that: if you dun wanna be retained, why didn't you study hard in the first place? i know of some people who just cant score well after mugging for 10, 000 yrs, those are the minority, no one can say anything. but most of the time, you hear teachers saying things like, "she's actually a very intelligent girl, it's just that she's too lazy, if not, i believe she can do well." so the problem lies with the people not wanting to study hard. who is to blame? rhetorical-

yes. decided to change blogskin cos simpsons dun really seem all that appealing. hehh.

thursday was basketball interclass. wasn't surprised that we LOST to 3B. they were super DUPER rough. and Umpire was also so unfair. oh well. im so into basketball aGAin! ha! LOve it!
friday was results-collecting day. i got to know all my results and i'm not happy at all. i failed my amaths by 2 marks. and failed my humans by 2MARKS also! argh!but i passed all my sciences. i know passing a subject is a DUH thing. but it seems so hard now. sokme of my frens either have to drop to NA or retain. i'm really sad abt that. especially close frens who i've been with for a whole year. haiz!

today went to ITE east to support dR william tan. he was going to attempt a guiness world record of wheeling around the track for 48hours. but not non-stop. he stopped a few times. actually he stopped many times. oOps. i went there with jac, afterwhich we went tampines mall to go to the toilet there. den i forced jac to go to popular to see russell lee with me. Ha! but it was quite disappointing becos he was masked again! i really wanna see russell lee's face!! oh well..

should i go city harvest tmr???

it's been a long long time since i blogged.
let's see. where should i begin?

last sunday was the last day for the vatican exhibition, i went there at around 7plus. quite crowded. queued for nearly 2hours. was indeed an eye-opener. i saw many thing which i guess i would never see in a lifetime. one thing that strucked me most was a vietnam painting which depicted the heaven-purgatory-earth-hell scene. there was much bloodshed in hell, and it was a total mayhem on earth. it seemed so real. lyk, right now, earth is going through so much, tsunamis, hurricanes, fires, global warming and terrorism. the baddies, went to hell, some on their way through purgatory, and there above, the angels, archangels, and saints and martyrs are surrounding GOD, JESUS and the HOly spirit is with them quite funny cos, there was like a 'cloud' escalator leading to heaven, it was something like purgatory.

this seriously dampened my mood to study for my chem paper. it seemed like there was nothing to study. after vatican exhibition, i reached home at around 12plus. next day attended 7am mass. mann! that was super duper early. i was yawning during mass! oOps.

my chem paper was completely screwed. my answers were in bits and pieces. sucks! hope i don't fail.
after chem paper, went to cut hair with jac and anna. yeah! my hair's no longer bushy as before. and i do not look like a bung please! i'm straight!!!! why doesn't anyone believe me????!!!!! wadeva. i know i'm straight and that's enough.
went brenda house to watch passion of the christ. i cried! i think i was the only one who cried? nvm. afterwhich watched a thai horror movie which did not seem scary to me. anyway, who cares.

next day went chalet. at aranda country club. the chalet was super BIG. it was spacious too! the first day, i spent the whole day playing mahjong, until the wee hours of the day. =D
the second day, went to play basketball with the UOBs. after which went back chalet. bbq time!
it was fun. i was the 'undertaker' because i was in charge of the corn, potatoes etc beneath the mesh wire. i was literally choking on the smoke.
played mahjong when we went back chalet again. later me rachel mindy brenda shermaine talked on the bed. supposed to share our darkest secrets. crazy. the rest were playing bridge outside. not fair! after that, i went to sam's room there. it was actually very noisy, jac aggie and huimin were talking so loudly. den later there was total silence and sama nd michelle claimed they heard something! ARH!!! i was so freaked out! totally couldn't sleep at all. it was a bad experience. ask me and i'll tell you in detail.
last day, checked out. they went BK for breakfast. i was full. went home. slept for 5hours. den woke up. watched tv. slack the whole day! =X

next day,was supposed to go bras besah with rachel to buy her geog book and collect my Initial D cd. in the end, rachel said she did not need her geog book any more. so we went to collect my cd. it was at plaza by the park. and we 2 suah ku ppl were wondering in town like some lost birds. haha. we walked for 2hours before we finally found the place. so tiring!
later we went plaza singapura and rachel bought sweets at marks and spencer. as usual. later came over to my place to do the npcc presentation for sec1 orientation next yr.

ok. i think i have typed out all that i can think of.
ciao~

yeeppie!!!!!!!!!!
the exams are finally over!
well
it was over 3days ago.

went chalet.
was fun!
cos i learnt how to play mahjong!
yeah!!
im so happy!

tomorrow going bras basah with rachel.
yeah!
whole week no school.
this is LIFE!

sometimes i think i am perfect. the fact is. i am not. i know that. the ego inside me got the better of me. i think i can do a better job than other people. but while i can do a good job. i do not let others show their true potential. thus i feel that i am the only perfect one. people hardly come up to me and say. hey you. can you please buzz off and stop pushing your weight around. you really piss me off and i don't need you right here right now. if fact. no one ever does that. it will and it is bound to hurt you. it will cut deep into your heart. especially if it is coming from a friend of yours whom you have thought of as a good friend. no one would dare to be so blunt in their tone. yet we know that they mean well. they just want the best for us. and that is for me to stop my bad bad habit. bossing around. i need a lecture on this big time. when you want to change. your pride ego self-esteem start to roll in. inevitably that is. i don't want to be who i am presently. i feel that i do not live my life to the fullest. maximising my fullest utmost potential. maybe i don't have potential. who is to ssay that anyway. not even me. honestly. it is true. your personality is your barrier to maximising your fullest potential. wad you are can sometimes stop or prevent you from letting you do what you want. once again inevitable right. so stop being what you actually are and work towards being a BETTER person. don't live by your present personality. work to a better goal. future. life.

another two weeks will be exams.
another another two weeks will be the end of exams!
lol.
-study
-mug
HARD.

ahaha.. i'm so happy!!! we got CHAMPION for HORIZON CHALLENGE!!! HAHAHA. i just wanna say. I'M HAPPY.

once upon a time..
there was this girl
who could never really enjoy her life..

today is probably my last day of fun until the exams are over.
i guess it was rather fun?
(:

we went sentosa siloso beach.
had tanning session.
i'm a Lobster now.
and jacqueline cant show off her tan anymore.
cos i'm tanner than her.
=p
quite lame,
we were playing zong ji mi ma.
and laodie and aggie kept on getting the number.
got quite boring becos we ran out of questions for them.
we were also supposed to have picnic!
but laodie had to go make her ic
so we left early.
nevermind.
we're gonna bring all the food to school tomorrow
to continue with our picnic.
yay!!

after sentosa
sam went for tuition
the rest of us went to heeren
shopped..
for nothing.
then i went home.

went for tcc meeting.
it's settled about having the dunking machine.
it's coming this saturday.
and all tcc members are supposed to go up there.
whoa.

just reached home and
i managed to complete routine order.
tmr sec1s are gonna do 2hr 30mins footdrill.
sorry.
i've gotta do wad i've gotta do.
i know you ppl hate rowena ma'am.
i hate her too!
-craps

i'm rushing my zuo ye now!
mann.

If I could ever turn back time
I'd make sure my life is one that's fulfilling and
perfeCt.
I've wasted so much time already.
doing the wrong things at the wrong time.
letting my mind wonder into some fairytale wonderland,
where everything is just an illusion
that I have in my heart.

god
lead me back to the right path
people have come to me
tell me all sorts of things.
sometimes directly using their words
to slap me right in the face.
It's time to wake up.
face the truth.

stop dreaming,
start doing.

my house stinks right now!!!
sewage pipe just burst!
some one save me!!!

dis sat is games day at nvss.
today went to reckie their place.
the ppl are crappy i must say!
esp the HAWK and the COCK

amazing race is gonna be a BLAST.
i assure.

ATC was great!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

daY_onE
reached Ubin at around 2plus. was lunch time and we got to know our groupmates from the other schools. interesting!
after lunch was tent-pitching. i had a splinter in my small finger and i went to the sickbay. so i did not get to pitch a single tent on my own:(
soon was dinner, during which could get to know my groupmates better. i'm SO happie that the guys are neither sissies, nor selfish ppl. yes! everyone shared all the rations(:
after dinner had pioneering. we tied a struture that was supposed to be a mess-tin/stove hanger. quite creative there.
after which had ice-breaker game. by then, eveyone was sweating. the game was smth like everyone standing on a bench and organising themselves according to height/birthdays..etc. fun!
had debrief session with our group CI, kimpeck sir. he was lenient. very nice too. told us ghost stories abt bahru campsite. thank goodness we're in noordin campsite. phew.

daY_twO
had morning pt. ran from noordin to bahru and back to noordin. it was a good jog i must say. i sweat it all out.
after breakfast was orienteering. kimpeck sir and mrchia were our instructors in charge. we sat off slowly to our first checkpoint.. guess we were somewhat too slow. =p
there were 7 checkpoints. and we came in 2nd out of 3 groups. quite an achievement, considering we spent a huge amt of time on a game which i shant go on to elaborate.
lunchtime was heaven. everyone was starving after the orienteering. i cooked 2 packets of maggie mee for myself and i could not finish, oOps. no one could help me to eat.
after lunch was supposedly kayaking. but because of the bad weather, we had to wait in the boatshed. in the end, we never got to kayak because the weather was so unpredictable:(
we soon went back to the usual assembly area where we got ready out campfire stuff. shenglong was the HAWK. haha. and we had a good time dressing him up.
after dinner, was CAMPFIRE!!!!! fun! cos there were many cheers and songs. it was high!!!
den it rained! oh mann!!!
but that did not dampen our spirits. we went to the assembly area and continued cheering. this time, everyone's face was RED from cheering. LOL
after cheering, we had stand-by-tentage. we were given 8mins to get our stuffs ready.
had a real bad sleep that night because i was sleeping at the end of the tent, and mosquitoes were feasting on my blood. endure for 1hour. den finally, when i could endure no more, i went to sickbay AGAIN to apply lotion. man was it soothing!!!
we were supposed to report for sentry duty at 3am, ending at 4am. but we were 10mins late and had to do 1 1/2 hour of sentry duty instead.

daY_thrEe
final day. we were given a privilege that was too hard to resist. no PT!!! oh yayyy!!!
ate breakfast at 630am. everyone was still half asleep and we all had only dry rations.
after breakfast was area-cleaning. my group was in for the keeping of the tents. quite a difficult task because teh sheets were dirty, full of grass and we had to clean them off.
last half hour of camp, we got scolded by raymond sir. for no sense of urgency, etc..
then.. was prize presentation, and guess what! my group, HAWK, got the best group award. we were SHOCKED alright. yay! happie too! everyone, including ourselves were puzzled at how we clinched the top prize. the two individual bset campers came form nvss.
from the campsite to the jetty, camp commandant wanted us to have non-stop continuous cheers and songs. and we DID IT!!!
when we finally reached jetty, everyone was panting. real hard!

coNcluSioN_
i love this year atc! the ppl in my group have also changed my attitude towards atc. the ppl have really made a huge difference in the 3days, which i thought was to be horrific, and terrifying.

after camp, i went back to our church. they were having lay apostolate telematch!
i wanted to join in. so i just slotted myself into sam's group. haha. we ended up in polar's group! yea. the 3 of us UNITE!
games were fun. samuel and nathaniel were our facils. cOoL_

wad an eventful weekend. and guess what.
i have not done a single peice of homework.
-thank you-