sometimes, i guess there are things which you have to let go. you cant cling on to them for long. it's not up to you, whether you want it or not, rather, it's up to whether that thing wants to cling on to you.

you may think it's funny, but did you realise that it is when you have lost something that you realise its true worth. Usually when it is just by your side, you do not even give a damn. you treat it like as if it will be by your side forever.
but you're wrong.

however, even when you lost something, that is so dear and precious to you, you have to move on nonetheless. you cant keep thinking and brooding about that thing. you still have to move on in life.

you only live this once, so treasure the things that are within your reach now. and don't wait until they are gone that you realise their true worth.

today spent like 5 hours at exPo.
at Sitex 2005.
there were many BIG companies.
like Dell, Creative, Compac, Toshiba, Hitachi, Starhub, Nokia, NEC, Razer, D-link, Philips, Hewlett packard, Harvey Norman, Apple, JVC, Panasonic, Sony, BenQ, Acer, Akira, Canon, Samsung
and the list goes on, you name it, they got it.

and i went there to give out flyers.
not easy finding a prime spot to give out,
and people give you that sort of "get away frm my territory" look..
but good thing i thick skin
dun care abt how ppl look at me.
jus give and give.
many rejections.
i saw ppl literally crushing the paper in front of my face.
but wad to do.
this is life.
=)

i'm so tired now!
just finish watching "she diao ying xiong zhuan"
on channel U.
it's super nice!!
with all those martial arts experts.
damn cool!
whoohoo!
really worth watching.
haha.

anyway.
tmr i'm goin expo again.
it's last day of Sitex.

these few days have been..
went thru 2 job interviews.
and end up with NO job.
one was due to religion problem.
another was a fraud.

the first job interview involve selling calenders
with indian gods in it.
we were supposed to sell it at
yishun open field,
where they had some indian celebrations.
my dad strictly disagreed.

the second job.
we thought it would be safe.
we went thru interview..
got the job.
it ended up being a fraud,
a cheat company.
Jue shi marketing.
it has means of cheating ppl
into filling in lucky draws.
and upon collecting the ppl's particulars,
they just treat them like shit.
i chanced upon a forum criticising this company,
which i suppose is affiliated to Oriental Travel.
my parents were oso cheated by Oriental Travel.
wad bad luck.
thank GOD my mum strictly disagreed to me working
so i quit before the rest.
later at night.
we had conference.
and surfed the net for Jue Shi Marketing (JSM)
all their scams/frauds/cheats filled the results page.
wth.

anyway.
it's thru these trials we face
that mould us into wiser ppl
who are able to discern.
and to prepare us for the harsh reality
of the ourside world, which
awaits us..

harry potter and the goblet of fire was a blast!!!

very nice!!

everyone should watch it!! man oh man.

i'm so addicted to harry potter now.

think i might go read the whole series.

yea.. ashamed to say that i have nvr read a single HP book. =p

went for a job interview too.

and got the job.

working together with eliz sam huimin

hope i earn the bucks!

ahh.. so many THINGS happen

and i guess i kinda grow more mature as a result of

these THINGS.

i dunno..

jac and eunice told me

about..

ME.

how i changed and all..

why is it so difficult

to tell me things straight to my face?

is it that hard?

it took me a long time before i culd squeeze info from those 2 ppl.

supposedly my good frens.

in fact i think 2 of my closest frens.

why.

why..

why...

but i've been thinking.

thinking deep.

i'll change for the better.

back to the old me.

yes.

i'll try.

=)

sad things aside.

tmr i'm gonna watch harry potter and the goblet of fire preview!!

i'm gonna watch before everyone else does!!

yeah!!!

i'm so fascinated.

cos everyone knows i hardly see movies.

and now..

thanks to aggie and rachel..

book ticket for me before i even agree.

the miraculous thing being..

my mum allowed!!!

aaHAHA.

this is simply hilarious.

i'm over the moon.

yeah..

shan't think about unhappy things.

always look on the bright side of life!

-ciao

to all who read my blog:


please read the entries in a positive light. there is NO hidden meaning in whatever i write in my blog. so if anyone of you are unhappy with what i write, you can say it to my face, and i will explain what i mean to you personally.

THANK YOU

BASKETBALL is my life now that everything's over.

right now having some really mixed feelings. just had the last official np trainng for the year. it was a good and bad one i must say. good because i cant help but say my fellow squadmates really portrayed teamwork while pitching the tent, as instructed by sir. i was really touched by everyone's determination to show the people that we were capable of pitching the tent. bad because there are 5 people in my squad retaining. that is really sad thing. they have really been great squadmates for the past three years. it ain't easy to let go of the bond that our squad shared for sucha long time. but in our hearts, we all know that you'll always be our squadmates and true friends.

we'll all miss your enthusiasm and hype in the squad. always thinking of funny lame ideas for the squad. you really brought much joy to the squad. to me, you've been great frens, talking about all sort of stuff all the time. you're always my dear squadmates and frens. always.


ok. sad things aside. let me talk about my end-yr results. not exactly remarkable, but i must say i'm quite shocked by the results. i expected a higher mark for my L1R5. but to my surprise, it was lower, much lower than i expected. =D overall pass! saddening thing being, a lot of my frens are being retained. chinese saying: "zao zhi jing ri, he bi dang chu". i know i'm blunt in my words. but really, wad i honestly feel is that: if you dun wanna be retained, why didn't you study hard in the first place? i know of some people who just cant score well after mugging for 10, 000 yrs, those are the minority, no one can say anything. but most of the time, you hear teachers saying things like, "she's actually a very intelligent girl, it's just that she's too lazy, if not, i believe she can do well." so the problem lies with the people not wanting to study hard. who is to blame? rhetorical-

yes. decided to change blogskin cos simpsons dun really seem all that appealing. hehh.

thursday was basketball interclass. wasn't surprised that we LOST to 3B. they were super DUPER rough. and Umpire was also so unfair. oh well. im so into basketball aGAin! ha! LOve it!
friday was results-collecting day. i got to know all my results and i'm not happy at all. i failed my amaths by 2 marks. and failed my humans by 2MARKS also! argh!but i passed all my sciences. i know passing a subject is a DUH thing. but it seems so hard now. sokme of my frens either have to drop to NA or retain. i'm really sad abt that. especially close frens who i've been with for a whole year. haiz!

today went to ITE east to support dR william tan. he was going to attempt a guiness world record of wheeling around the track for 48hours. but not non-stop. he stopped a few times. actually he stopped many times. oOps. i went there with jac, afterwhich we went tampines mall to go to the toilet there. den i forced jac to go to popular to see russell lee with me. Ha! but it was quite disappointing becos he was masked again! i really wanna see russell lee's face!! oh well..

should i go city harvest tmr???

it's been a long long time since i blogged.
let's see. where should i begin?

last sunday was the last day for the vatican exhibition, i went there at around 7plus. quite crowded. queued for nearly 2hours. was indeed an eye-opener. i saw many thing which i guess i would never see in a lifetime. one thing that strucked me most was a vietnam painting which depicted the heaven-purgatory-earth-hell scene. there was much bloodshed in hell, and it was a total mayhem on earth. it seemed so real. lyk, right now, earth is going through so much, tsunamis, hurricanes, fires, global warming and terrorism. the baddies, went to hell, some on their way through purgatory, and there above, the angels, archangels, and saints and martyrs are surrounding GOD, JESUS and the HOly spirit is with them quite funny cos, there was like a 'cloud' escalator leading to heaven, it was something like purgatory.

this seriously dampened my mood to study for my chem paper. it seemed like there was nothing to study. after vatican exhibition, i reached home at around 12plus. next day attended 7am mass. mann! that was super duper early. i was yawning during mass! oOps.

my chem paper was completely screwed. my answers were in bits and pieces. sucks! hope i don't fail.
after chem paper, went to cut hair with jac and anna. yeah! my hair's no longer bushy as before. and i do not look like a bung please! i'm straight!!!! why doesn't anyone believe me????!!!!! wadeva. i know i'm straight and that's enough.
went brenda house to watch passion of the christ. i cried! i think i was the only one who cried? nvm. afterwhich watched a thai horror movie which did not seem scary to me. anyway, who cares.

next day went chalet. at aranda country club. the chalet was super BIG. it was spacious too! the first day, i spent the whole day playing mahjong, until the wee hours of the day. =D
the second day, went to play basketball with the UOBs. after which went back chalet. bbq time!
it was fun. i was the 'undertaker' because i was in charge of the corn, potatoes etc beneath the mesh wire. i was literally choking on the smoke.
played mahjong when we went back chalet again. later me rachel mindy brenda shermaine talked on the bed. supposed to share our darkest secrets. crazy. the rest were playing bridge outside. not fair! after that, i went to sam's room there. it was actually very noisy, jac aggie and huimin were talking so loudly. den later there was total silence and sama nd michelle claimed they heard something! ARH!!! i was so freaked out! totally couldn't sleep at all. it was a bad experience. ask me and i'll tell you in detail.
last day, checked out. they went BK for breakfast. i was full. went home. slept for 5hours. den woke up. watched tv. slack the whole day! =X

next day,was supposed to go bras besah with rachel to buy her geog book and collect my Initial D cd. in the end, rachel said she did not need her geog book any more. so we went to collect my cd. it was at plaza by the park. and we 2 suah ku ppl were wondering in town like some lost birds. haha. we walked for 2hours before we finally found the place. so tiring!
later we went plaza singapura and rachel bought sweets at marks and spencer. as usual. later came over to my place to do the npcc presentation for sec1 orientation next yr.

ok. i think i have typed out all that i can think of.
ciao~

yeeppie!!!!!!!!!!
the exams are finally over!
well
it was over 3days ago.

went chalet.
was fun!
cos i learnt how to play mahjong!
yeah!!
im so happy!

tomorrow going bras basah with rachel.
yeah!
whole week no school.
this is LIFE!

sometimes i think i am perfect. the fact is. i am not. i know that. the ego inside me got the better of me. i think i can do a better job than other people. but while i can do a good job. i do not let others show their true potential. thus i feel that i am the only perfect one. people hardly come up to me and say. hey you. can you please buzz off and stop pushing your weight around. you really piss me off and i don't need you right here right now. if fact. no one ever does that. it will and it is bound to hurt you. it will cut deep into your heart. especially if it is coming from a friend of yours whom you have thought of as a good friend. no one would dare to be so blunt in their tone. yet we know that they mean well. they just want the best for us. and that is for me to stop my bad bad habit. bossing around. i need a lecture on this big time. when you want to change. your pride ego self-esteem start to roll in. inevitably that is. i don't want to be who i am presently. i feel that i do not live my life to the fullest. maximising my fullest utmost potential. maybe i don't have potential. who is to ssay that anyway. not even me. honestly. it is true. your personality is your barrier to maximising your fullest potential. wad you are can sometimes stop or prevent you from letting you do what you want. once again inevitable right. so stop being what you actually are and work towards being a BETTER person. don't live by your present personality. work to a better goal. future. life.