wow.
in the blink of an eye.
it's almost christmas!
how time really flies.
well.
one event that played a major role in my life
during this december.
yes.
none other than the JB church retreat to tanjong puteri golf resort.
it was really nice.
praise and worship.
spiritual sessions.
games.
HUGS!
i am simply in LOVE with this camp.

a few major happenings during the camp.
we had the passion scene.
where we were supposed to drink wine
as in wine dat jesus took at the
last supper.
the sad thing was:
i didn't feel anything at all.
almost everyone in the room cried.
sheesh.
i thought i was abnormal.

then the second night.
laying of hands and praying over.
i did not feel anything at all.
i was getting scared.
then later we sang
POWER OF YOUR LOVE.
that was when i felt it.
wow.
tears just poured out.
ok.
now i felt it.
the holy spirit.
: )

last day.
washing of feet.
samantha lee washed my feet.
i was so touched.
really.
never expected this friend.
who is actually very "tai tai"
to wash my feet for me.
that is love.
it was supposed to be a serious moment.
but after washing feet.
many of us went to the back to talk.
Fr Bosco was upset.
really upset.
he told us to reflect.
all of us were solemn when we left the room.

then it was mass.
Fr Bos' mood suddenly changed.
he said that sad stuff aside.
we were goin to celebrate the eucharist.
: )

after mass.
we had more HUGS.
and we got back our warm fuzzies.
: D

i'm beginning to like church camps for the first time.
GOD ROCKS THE WORLD MAN.
Our boss, Fr Bosco too!
haha.

You think I'm an ignorant savage
And you've been so many places; I guess it must be so
But still I cannot see, if the savage one is me
How can there be so much that you don't know?
You don't know...

You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know every rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name.

You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew

Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind?

Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once never wonder what they're worth

The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends

How high can the sycamore grow?
If you cut it down then you'll never know

And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or coloured skinned
We need to sing with all the voices of the mountain
We need to paint with all the colours of the wind

You can own the earth and still
All you'll own is earth until
You can paint with all the colours of the wind

wtfh man.

all this bullshit that i write.
means nothing at all.

just want to be silent now.
really
-silent-

sometimes, i guess there are things which you have to let go. you cant cling on to them for long. it's not up to you, whether you want it or not, rather, it's up to whether that thing wants to cling on to you.

you may think it's funny, but did you realise that it is when you have lost something that you realise its true worth. Usually when it is just by your side, you do not even give a damn. you treat it like as if it will be by your side forever.
but you're wrong.

however, even when you lost something, that is so dear and precious to you, you have to move on nonetheless. you cant keep thinking and brooding about that thing. you still have to move on in life.

you only live this once, so treasure the things that are within your reach now. and don't wait until they are gone that you realise their true worth.

today spent like 5 hours at exPo.
at Sitex 2005.
there were many BIG companies.
like Dell, Creative, Compac, Toshiba, Hitachi, Starhub, Nokia, NEC, Razer, D-link, Philips, Hewlett packard, Harvey Norman, Apple, JVC, Panasonic, Sony, BenQ, Acer, Akira, Canon, Samsung
and the list goes on, you name it, they got it.

and i went there to give out flyers.
not easy finding a prime spot to give out,
and people give you that sort of "get away frm my territory" look..
but good thing i thick skin
dun care abt how ppl look at me.
jus give and give.
many rejections.
i saw ppl literally crushing the paper in front of my face.
but wad to do.
this is life.
=)

i'm so tired now!
just finish watching "she diao ying xiong zhuan"
on channel U.
it's super nice!!
with all those martial arts experts.
damn cool!
whoohoo!
really worth watching.
haha.

anyway.
tmr i'm goin expo again.
it's last day of Sitex.

these few days have been..
went thru 2 job interviews.
and end up with NO job.
one was due to religion problem.
another was a fraud.

the first job interview involve selling calenders
with indian gods in it.
we were supposed to sell it at
yishun open field,
where they had some indian celebrations.
my dad strictly disagreed.

the second job.
we thought it would be safe.
we went thru interview..
got the job.
it ended up being a fraud,
a cheat company.
Jue shi marketing.
it has means of cheating ppl
into filling in lucky draws.
and upon collecting the ppl's particulars,
they just treat them like shit.
i chanced upon a forum criticising this company,
which i suppose is affiliated to Oriental Travel.
my parents were oso cheated by Oriental Travel.
wad bad luck.
thank GOD my mum strictly disagreed to me working
so i quit before the rest.
later at night.
we had conference.
and surfed the net for Jue Shi Marketing (JSM)
all their scams/frauds/cheats filled the results page.
wth.

anyway.
it's thru these trials we face
that mould us into wiser ppl
who are able to discern.
and to prepare us for the harsh reality
of the ourside world, which
awaits us..

harry potter and the goblet of fire was a blast!!!

very nice!!

everyone should watch it!! man oh man.

i'm so addicted to harry potter now.

think i might go read the whole series.

yea.. ashamed to say that i have nvr read a single HP book. =p

went for a job interview too.

and got the job.

working together with eliz sam huimin

hope i earn the bucks!

ahh.. so many THINGS happen

and i guess i kinda grow more mature as a result of

these THINGS.

i dunno..

jac and eunice told me

about..

ME.

how i changed and all..

why is it so difficult

to tell me things straight to my face?

is it that hard?

it took me a long time before i culd squeeze info from those 2 ppl.

supposedly my good frens.

in fact i think 2 of my closest frens.

why.

why..

why...

but i've been thinking.

thinking deep.

i'll change for the better.

back to the old me.

yes.

i'll try.

=)

sad things aside.

tmr i'm gonna watch harry potter and the goblet of fire preview!!

i'm gonna watch before everyone else does!!

yeah!!!

i'm so fascinated.

cos everyone knows i hardly see movies.

and now..

thanks to aggie and rachel..

book ticket for me before i even agree.

the miraculous thing being..

my mum allowed!!!

aaHAHA.

this is simply hilarious.

i'm over the moon.

yeah..

shan't think about unhappy things.

always look on the bright side of life!

-ciao

to all who read my blog:


please read the entries in a positive light. there is NO hidden meaning in whatever i write in my blog. so if anyone of you are unhappy with what i write, you can say it to my face, and i will explain what i mean to you personally.

THANK YOU

BASKETBALL is my life now that everything's over.

right now having some really mixed feelings. just had the last official np trainng for the year. it was a good and bad one i must say. good because i cant help but say my fellow squadmates really portrayed teamwork while pitching the tent, as instructed by sir. i was really touched by everyone's determination to show the people that we were capable of pitching the tent. bad because there are 5 people in my squad retaining. that is really sad thing. they have really been great squadmates for the past three years. it ain't easy to let go of the bond that our squad shared for sucha long time. but in our hearts, we all know that you'll always be our squadmates and true friends.

we'll all miss your enthusiasm and hype in the squad. always thinking of funny lame ideas for the squad. you really brought much joy to the squad. to me, you've been great frens, talking about all sort of stuff all the time. you're always my dear squadmates and frens. always.


ok. sad things aside. let me talk about my end-yr results. not exactly remarkable, but i must say i'm quite shocked by the results. i expected a higher mark for my L1R5. but to my surprise, it was lower, much lower than i expected. =D overall pass! saddening thing being, a lot of my frens are being retained. chinese saying: "zao zhi jing ri, he bi dang chu". i know i'm blunt in my words. but really, wad i honestly feel is that: if you dun wanna be retained, why didn't you study hard in the first place? i know of some people who just cant score well after mugging for 10, 000 yrs, those are the minority, no one can say anything. but most of the time, you hear teachers saying things like, "she's actually a very intelligent girl, it's just that she's too lazy, if not, i believe she can do well." so the problem lies with the people not wanting to study hard. who is to blame? rhetorical-

yes. decided to change blogskin cos simpsons dun really seem all that appealing. hehh.

thursday was basketball interclass. wasn't surprised that we LOST to 3B. they were super DUPER rough. and Umpire was also so unfair. oh well. im so into basketball aGAin! ha! LOve it!
friday was results-collecting day. i got to know all my results and i'm not happy at all. i failed my amaths by 2 marks. and failed my humans by 2MARKS also! argh!but i passed all my sciences. i know passing a subject is a DUH thing. but it seems so hard now. sokme of my frens either have to drop to NA or retain. i'm really sad abt that. especially close frens who i've been with for a whole year. haiz!

today went to ITE east to support dR william tan. he was going to attempt a guiness world record of wheeling around the track for 48hours. but not non-stop. he stopped a few times. actually he stopped many times. oOps. i went there with jac, afterwhich we went tampines mall to go to the toilet there. den i forced jac to go to popular to see russell lee with me. Ha! but it was quite disappointing becos he was masked again! i really wanna see russell lee's face!! oh well..

should i go city harvest tmr???