I don't really know why and how things turned out the way they have, but I want to thank you for being so very patient and enduring this whole time. It is an ordeal I know, to be going through something so tough and not knowing the reason behind it. I'm confused too. I hate myself for hurting you. You deserve so much better you know. I think about it all the time. But I just don't know the right things to say, to sound right. What's right, anyway.