LOLS!! thursday had sports day! and in our class race we came in 2nd!! soooo happie, at least now 3F'05 is known for something pleasant!! =)) yuppie.. the rest of the time was doing marshall.. in the sun.. thanks a lot.. den later went compass for lunch, didn't wanna go kfc, but in the end we went in, stayed for 1hr plus plus. den went back to school for basketball.. quite fun larrh.. as usual.. hahahahaha.. oh ya.. we had a "new-comer".. we had a LOT of "FUN" wid him yupps.. mr gilbert tay played wid us. his shooting, jumping and lay-ups were soooooo stylo.. ... ... ... den later went to RA wid aggie, sharon n huimin. stoned dere the way thruout. RA is a new-found place founded by huimin aggie n me. it's so nice. n we found is on wednesday. it was more interestin on wed, truth-or-dare!! haha.. oh ya.. n on wed dere was this farting freaky incident at compass. dere was this fart that was lingering wherever we went. one at kfc, another at royal sporting house. err.. scariee.. aniwae, wad's wid the quietness??!! lols.. but i love that place.. just love it.. it's lyk a living sanctuary. yess! later went bck to compass pt, sat in front of 7-11. n I told them wad i was thinkin, argh!! poured out my everything. yup, my everything. felt so much better, but thanks a lot for laughing mans!! it helped a LOT.

on friday was normal. -normal=bad- npcc was bad. wore full uni, n went to sengkang neighbourhood to educate the public. wow. wad an eye-opener. ppl were lyk: "oh thanks, but i noe how to teach myself in public" .. .. but some were nice. they stood at their doorstep n listened. there was this guy, super funny. he opened the door, stood dere n stoned, listened to wad me n my partner had to say, n suddenly broke from his silent n said, "common sense right.." errr, ya.. he was right. lyk hu dunno??? lols.. den went home, bathed, and went for stations of the cross to take over jerry. argh! was late for 15mins. sorrie leonard!! thanks for doin my job for me.

today, saturday. jac's birthday. i wished her happie birthday. but no prezzie. sorrie. =)) den me, tang, jac, adel lau, amanda, cjy, iryani, michelle, gayathri went to paya lebar cc to practice netball. damn relax. played a few frenly matches, n cjy is good. serious. den went macdonalds for lunch. but i didn't eat. but i took a bite of jac's nugget, ate her fries n drank her coke. haha.. later i went to church for the rehearsal.wah, so hot. n i was so tired. but it was okay.. n soon over. went to 401 had lunch wid amy, isis n adeline. adeline is sooo smart. found out she got 8 pts for Olevels. A levels i not so sure. n she was tokin abt her teaching experience. so nice, the way she describe how the students treat her. so sweet.. =))

march holidays are so NOT lyk march holidays. i gotta go to school everyday. yuppie! everyday.
monday-netball trng, chem & physics project
tuesday-NCO camp
Wednesday-NCO camp
Thursday-netball competition, Emath remedial
Friday-Amaths tuition

so busy right.. just simply love it.

yes.. after talking to us.. I know it. WE know it. but even if we WANT to change, we are weak, wad can we do? Nobody is helping us. well.. not really their fault, os they do not even noe we need help. actually, they are the one who need help. seriously speaking.. they are a hopeless bunch of morons. I dunno why i got myself into this freaking unnecessary mess. so extra right.. well.. it's no use.. i try to help them.. they dun wanna help themselves. If they don't help themselves, but other people try to help them. the help they get is utterly futile. but me together wid *u noe who* will try our very best till the end.. but who noes when the "end" is.. sad sad.. I cannot give up. my definition of "cannot" is that i am forced to.

only *you all* know wad im saying and how I feel.
and "you all" know who can help us.
I said it before..
right..

today had chem test. argh.. my nightmare. dun think i did well.. wad do you expect, no textbook. I lost my textbook, $26.88 okay. no cheap hor. wah lau. crap. crap. but wad's done is done. lols.. listening to mockingbird now, reminds of sharon yim. charlie... charlie, wherever you are, here i come.. went to watch hide and seek wid rachel, sharon, sam, alethea, eu lynn and dyan. but before went lido to watch, we went sajc funfair. isis asked us to go one. at first rachel n sharon wanted to go haunted house. but queue was too long, n i wonder if they chickened out or sumthing.. haha. ya, n we were playing those water guns n water bombs. was completely soaked when we left. argh.. so cold. -freezing- imagine the cinema oso so cold.. ..brrrrr.. so cold.. stayed in the toilet for 10mins at the hair-dryer to warm myself. ahhh.. den went home. to celebrate my dad birthday.

haha.. you were lyk do idiot okay. you tell me not to do this to you. But you always do that to me. whoa, wad's that supposed to mean? idiot idiot!! Good thing I still have another. If not I think im so gonna faint. serious. I just -black out-

today is boring, actually wanted to do 2 things: visit ms ong and revise the knots and lashings with rachel and tang for campcraft test next week. im so scared, this test will determine whether i get my campcraft badge. jus pray hard that i do well. =)) but instead of doing these 2 things, i went to tampines mall dere to buy skirt for my sis for her sunday readings. argh, tomorrow i goin to read oso, but i still dunno wad im reading, hope it's prayers of the faithful, the shortest of them all. haha..

yesterday
chemistry was scary as usual, mr teoh keep on telling us to go visit his website, uhhh... i dunno wad to say, his website is so packed can. hai.. aniwae, history was boring as usual. lols, we tried to bluff her that the test was next week, but she was just too smart, n went to ask sharna and the guai guai ppl. den we had training, my gosh, 2 whole hours of foot drills, want my life eh. but the sad thing being, we still have yet to master belok. sad right. haiz, but good thing i was not called out of the squad. so scared ok!


I know that you don't want these to happen. and even if they happen, they happen for a reason. which has been planned by God and regretting it would be too late. forget the past, cherish the present and look forward to the future. =)
I wish I could accept the fact. but it's too heavy for me. I feel very.. .. It's totally out of this world. how could anyone think of doing this sort of thing to the other party. Don't they even spare a thought to the other person, who ought to be given their own points of view? I really need God's grace, whenever I see you, how I wish I could give you one tight slap across your face so that I can wake you up from the sleep that you're in for such a long time.
It's painful, but you do not feel it. It really disgusts me to see you in this state. I don't know how I'm ever going to manage for one more year. But they say, time flies, in the blink of an eye, well.. I just want to blink my eye, and pray that all this is over. It not only hurts me, it hurts many people around you.
One person whom you have so secretly hurt, you think she is not feeling it, or you think that the one in pain is you, do you know that she's actually the bearer of all these torment? I bet you do not feel an inch of it, do you? To her, it might seem that it's nothing. but in all our hearts, we know, she knows too, in fact, too well. you tell her not to treat you hostile, but look at the way you treat her. worse than a beast. just wake up. alright?

today is boring, actually wanted to do 2 things: visit ms ong and revise the knots and lashings with rachel and tang for campcraft test next week. im so scared, this test will determine whether i get my campcraft badge. jus pray hard that i do well. =)) but instead of doing these 2 things, i went to tampines mall dere to buy skirt for my sis for her sunday readings. argh, tomorrow i goin to read oso, but i still dunno wad im reading, hope it's prayers of the faithful, the shortest of them all. haha..

yesterday
chemistry was scary as usual, mr teoh keep on telling us to go visit his website, uhhh... i dunno wad to say, his website is so packed can. hai.. aniwae, history was boring as usual. lols, we tried to bluff her that the test was next week, but she was just too smart, n went to ask sharna and the guai guai ppl. den we had training, my gosh, 2 whole hours of foot drills, want my life eh. but the sad thing being, we still have yet to master belok. sad right. haiz, but good thing i was not called out of the squad. so scared ok!


I know that you don't want these to happen. and even if they happen, they happen for a reason. which has been planned by God and regretting it would be too late. forget the past, cherish the present and look forward to the future. =)
I wish I could accept the fact. but it's too heavy for me. I feel very.. .. It's totally out of this world. how could anyone think of doing this sort of thing to the other party. Don't they even spare a thought to the other person, who ought to be given their own points of view? I really need God's grace, whenever I see you, how I wish I could give you one tight slap across your face so that I can wake you up from the sleep that you're in for such a long time.
It's painful, but you do not feel it. It really disgusts me to see you in this state. I don't know how I'm ever going to manage for one more year. But they say, time flies, in the blink of an eye, well.. I just want to blink my eye, and pray that all this is over. It not only hurts me, it hurts many people around you.
One person whom you have so secretly hurt, you think she is not feeling it, or you think that the one in pain is you, do you know that she's actually the bearer of all these torment? I bet you do not feel an inch of it, do you? To her, it might seem that it's nothing. but in all our hearts, we know, she knows too, in fact, too well. you tell her not to treat you hostile, but look at the way you treat her. worse than a beast. just wake up. alright?

Broken, this fragile thing now

And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces

And I've thrown my words all around

But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)

And I give up (I give up)

I just want to tell you, so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do

You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down

And I can't, I can't hold on for too long

Ran my whole life in the ground

And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)

I feel like giving up (like giving up)

I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do

You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly

Leave a note for you, my only one

And I know you can see right through me

So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you

You are my only one

I let go, there's just no one, no one like you

You are my only, my only one

My only one

My only one

My only one

You are my only, my only one

today we went to plaza sing to celebrate khiu's birthday. yup, kinda catched up wid khiu a little bit, after of 2 yrs of no frens communication. ate at long john.. again! ya, not sain leh. haha, lao die we all were continuously asking for crumbs, and the ppl there are forever continuously saying, "oh, sorrie, no more." wadever la. so ngiaw, however you spell it. typical singaporean! haha, went action city and stoned in front of all the winnie the pooh stuff toys. oso dunno why. hehe.. not as if i lyk winnie the pooh so much. guess i'll buy sharon another winnie the pooh's fren, dat is, tigger. her tigger is lyk rotting, in my bag. hahaha.. n we took neoprints. 8 ppl in that small puny space. but we all fit into the picture fortunately. nice. i saw sam's mum. haha, she opens this small stall in front of yoshi. cool, wad she does. the sculptures are cute. lols.. later went back seng kang wid hui min, eliz, rachel n lao die. went to play tennis wid hui min and eliz. yesss!!! finally learnt tennis. i love my two coaches, hui min and pamela seah. =p -freak-

ya.. im sure, jesse McCartney is cute. don't say he's "okay lar" okay!

i want to watch Constantine, mus go out together one of these days ok? happie birthday priscilla! i love you!!!

as usual... physics sucks and i was stoning in front of the workbook 24/7. gosh. i need help.

jesse McCartney is so handsome!!! saw his album on the net. hahas.. side view looks a bit like Aaron Carter.

yesterday was marksman classification shoot. My performance was utterly horrendous. didn't expect it to be such low marks. haiz, and to think i call myself... ... but wad's done is done, nothing i can do to change the fact. [those who wanna know my marks, please ask me directly. Im too ashamed to post my marks on the net. yes. thank you.]
It ended off quite late, especially since we were the last of the schools in area7 to shoot. while on our way home, we were on bus 156. goodness, i got off the wrong stop, den aiting they all were lyk "faster come up" haha, so malu can. hai.. reach home at 8pm. was dead beat. too tired to bathe. but i had to lar, obviously. ate dinner, watch tv till 10pm, den went to bathe. haha, so late, i think im gonna get rheumatism. =p

today woke up early. goin op warehouse sale wid hui min n tang. quite fulfilling. bought 2 t-shirts and a wallet n a pencil case. at least it was better than the converse one, but the crowd was terrible. sooooooo many people. later we went bugis, ate beef noodles. den we went cold storage to buy drinks, cos we were too poor to even afford food-court drinks. hehe.. shared a bottle of pepsi twist. den there was this super fake cai shen ye. haha, he was giving away chocolates. we saw his container inside oso got ang pao, den we ask him to gif us. he eventually did give us one. but no money la. only 4 numbers, wanna know wad the numbers are? haha ask me personally la. =p okok, this one can say. it was 8129. den later hui min n her brother had to leave for cell group. so left tang and me. we went parco and walked. and walked. no money to buy anything tho. lyk wad i said, materialistic young people. cos we were walking into those nike, adidas and converse shops. haha.. and i know wad tang wants for her birthday le. it was a BIG hint she dropped. den later we got bored.. so went home. and den

did maths homework. argh!!! A maths is soo difficult. remainder theorem is sooo difficult. no one at home wants to help me. guess i gotta go and bother athena again? or sharon yim.. her mama is lyk constantly helping her wid her maths. not fair. my dad dun wanna help, my mum only plays wid my baby bro all day long, den both of them are always at work, no elder sibling to help me. argh. i think i need tuition. -s h i t-

just went for the first camp of the year. wad can i say, it sure was an unpleasant start for me! oh.. you shuld haf seen the toilet.. marvellous! just marvellous, the ground was downright sandy muddy and wad haf you. im quite shocked that i managed to bathe under those circumstances. well, wad was worse was that i had a bad bad stomach ache. awww, needed to shit so badly, but i managed to control myself until the second day afternoon, wah, really cannot tahan alr, so i had no chioce, just had to shit. oh my goodness, the toilet bowl, lyk wad ursula said, was fit for a hobbit. yup, so freaking short, for a moment i felt lyk as if i was doin half-squat. haha, but it sure was an experience for me.

I think wad was worst was still the treatment. lyk.. how to say.. we paid $300 for this eco-camp, the food was only so-so.. the bathing environment, you noe how it's like, den the sleeping condition is okay lar, other than that, i think it's the talks and walks and trips dat we made all around mawai. wow.. we paid $300 for the instructors' knowledge. cool.. -_-"

ok.. first day: 11/01/2005
we got lost, and did not reach our destination on time, was 2 hours delayed. and some freaks just had to use the toilet in the middle of the journey. by the time we reached there, the other teams were already half done already. some ppl just had to whine and whine about the tedious walk, as if they are the only ones suffering. oh please..... but it was rather cool for me, we got to walk IN a mangrove swamp. ya ya.. you might thik it's muddy and stuff, but surprisingly, it was stoney and rocky.. nth much.. but there were tons of hermit crabs in shells. then we went to the seashore, cool!! i saw this really blackish sea cucumber, it squirted water when i picked it up with a net. and we made a new discovery, whenever a sea cucumber was trapped under something, the part of it's body that was trapped would end up swelling and become red, ewww, so scary ok!! everything went as normal and we walked back after everything ended. you won't believe how much the villages were selling their goreng pisang.. hahas, it was lyk only 10 cents RM. so cheap right, so sad we were not allowed to buy ourselves, but our instructors bought one for each of us. den soon we proceeded back to camp site. bathing was next. lols, hui min almost cried can! she was so afraid of the mud and sand dat she didn't dare to bathe, altho she did bathe in the end. dinner was not bad, tho the vegetable tasted funny, we were told that the vegetable was from their kampong. hehe, for a moment, i thought it was kang kong. after dinner we had a talk, it was somewad rather boring cos some parts of the talk were repeated. soon it was lights out. but supper was sago and banana, quite nice, a bit sour tho, becos of the banana, but overall, it was yummie! first part of the night was bad. some people were chit chatting in the middle of the night and they simply refused to sleep. stupid big mouth.

second day: 12/01/2005
woke up early cos some really idiotic asses had to scold vulgarities early in the morn. haiz, long story. and to jacqueline: please dun scold those four-letter-words in dialect if you dont know wad it means. it's bad for health. and it's not "cool" to scold those words. ok.. after braekfast, we went to walk in the bushes to collect macarenga leaves, those big big leaves that can wrap food in it. we were supposed to wrap chicken in it. lols.. this was where all the fun started. we were walking walking walking.. den suddenly, ARGH!!! leech leech!!! guess who screamed? me!!! hehe, ya, i was totally freaked out, yes! freaked out is the word i use. i was thinking, why me why me!!! thanks to mrs tan, she didn't panic. den she asked, who got lighter who got lighter. great! no one in the whole damn group brought lighter. how to get rid of the leech!!!!!!! this moment, i was really panicking big time. good thing mrs tan was calm and cool. she took out a pocket knife, and scrapped the leech off my skin. phew.. actually, it wasn't pain, it was only itchy. jus that in a moment of shock i just started screaming. after that the main story began. hui min got bitten twice, kendra was bitten once. but i think kendra was the most poor thing one. she put the tissue over the wound to stop bleeding, but instead, the blood stain the middle part of the tissue and kind of formed a japanese flag. you can imagine right, a big red patch in the middle of a white tissue, haha, see alr wanna laugh. den we walked back, cos too many ppl were being bitten by leeches. lol, sharon was so siao can, she tried to stand still the whole time, becos why? she wanted to get bitten by leech. btu in the end, she still did not get bitten. she was so disappointed. after lunch we had water activities. probably the best activity in teh whole camp. we were all wet ok! haha, den i was lyk singing "come home soon" in the water. then i sang the part, "i think im falling down, down down down" and guess wad, i fell into the water the moment i sang that part, jac was

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall, ooh
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly, ooh

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within, ohh

Young girl don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away, ooh ohh
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day, ohh

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside, look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within

Ohh yeah, ooh, yeah ohh

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
Break it
(Hold on)
You'll make it
(Be strong)
Just don't forsake it because
(No one can tell you what you can't do)
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
And like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within, oh yeah

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall, ohh

oh man, one more day to school reopen. dread dread dread.. i dun think i can take it. the back-to-school issue is literally driving me nuts. no no no !!!! i dun wanna go back to school, especially THAT school.yucks, the thought of it, the sight of it totally irks me. big time. God really need to bless me with a lot of grace before i can really accept the life of SCHOOL. i'm really one problem kid.

the books, chemistry, physics, A Maths. oh man, nothing to say. it's thicker than dictionary. wad the! teachers, not to mention, are also a BIG stumbling block for me in my years of education life. shit shit! Mary Charles, that big fat bitch! hope she never gets married man!

ay! wait a minute, Mary Charles teaches Bio right?!!! hahahaha, phew!!! thank GOD!! haha. so happie/ okok, at least i dun hafta face that dumb ass all day long. haha, but i still hope she never gets married. *lao gu po* =p LOL LOL LOL!!!!!

im so mean. gosh. how could i. whoops. mus go for confession.

bad bad. i didn't go for penitential service last week, my sins are accumulating as the days go by. mus pray real hard. God please forgive me, i'll try not to sin again. -_-.. impossible. but i'll continue to pray. peepz out dere must also help me okay? im one big sinful soul.

but i'm still happie mary charles will never be teaching me. =p



yesterday was new year's eve. went for church party. haiz, wanted to go cynthia goh's house BBQ, but my mum paid for the ticket to go the church party le. it was lyk 20 bucks, so i cannot don't go, had to go.
rather boring there. it was all the uncles and aunties, den also got english legion. i was practically wid isis half the time. played tetris. cos it was so boring. cant help it.
den had the countdown. 5... 4... 3... 2... 1... HAPPY NEW YEAR.

goodness, lyk wad's so happy about a new year?!?!?!?!?!
a new year means new books, new teachers, new timetable, new subjects, new classmates [bad, for your info] new everything. are all the above mentioned worth to be happy about? i guess not.

but..

it might not be that bad. cos got new juniors, can bully.. hahas, kidding lar.. im not so mean.

okok, NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS

-be a good NCO
-Respect my juniors and seniors
-study hard
-study harder
-Try to give my teachers the respect they deserve
-love my friends
-love my enemies
-love GOD with all my heart and trust in him

ok.. end!